The End

Let's talk about LOST! The End.

I can't believe I just wrote that title here. I am having a hard time coming around to facing the end of this wonderful journey, but alas I know that every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end. What can I say? That's a line that sticks with me after my many years of playing the club circuit but its proper nonetheless.

Once upon a time:
Jack's eye opened to signify the start of this journey.
It has always seemed to me that he and the other castaways were placed on the "Island" as if they were placed pieces on a game board.

I played back in my mind's eye Christian Shepherd's coffin arriving at LAX in the LA  X sideways and Jack on the "Island" washing his hands and face in the stream in preparation for his new "Island" job, Ben going through the mundane motions in his one armed existence in the sideways and then him loading a gun on the "Island" to continue on his quest as he currently sides with (MIB)/Locke,  Locke looking back at his empty black wheelchair as he is wheeled on a gurney into surgery,  Lonely James in the locker room at the police station putting his badge over his head and glimpsing at himself in the mirror he broke in frustration, then he tends to Kate's bullet wound on the "Island", and Kate waits in Hugo's Camaro in the church parking lot of The Lamppost station while the Oceanic Air Cargo van delivers "Christian".
Interestingly Desmond signs for the cargo from the currier Bocklin, claiming he works there.  Kate nonchalantly asks Des "Who died?" and he blandly replies "A man named Christian Shephard."
Kate won't let him turn the key to start the car until he tells her why he made her put on that dress and busted her out of jail to go to a "Fusion" concert, "You won't even tell me why we're here."
Desmond-"No one can tell you why you're here, Kate."
I remember Kate having similar dialogue with Ben in A Tale of Two Cities.
Desmond confesses that he wants to "leave".
Curious Kate wonders, "Leave and go where?"
Desmond will show her.

Jack stands alone ankle deep the water of the stream and we see he has a renewed aura about him but shares with James that he really doesn't feel any different as "the new Jacob", and he really doesn't know "what the hell just happened up here".   Jack explains to his friends that Jacob said they have to go to the bamboo forest just past their old camp and that's where he'd find the place they need to protect. Yes, in that very same vicinity we've seen Jack start from at least twice already.
Jacob called it the heart of the Island; it's a light.
Hugo- "And that Locke Smoke Thing wants to put it out?"
Jack- "Something like that, yeah."
Hugo- "So, what if he does?"
Jack- "Then that’s it for all of us."
Kate- "But, if Locke wants to put it out, then why hasn’t he?"
James- "'Cause he ain’t got what he needs. I’m guessing that’d be Desmond. . .That’s where we were headed before your inauguration. Sayid said Locke tossed him in a well."
Jack-"Jacob didn’t say anything to me about Desmond."
James- "Doesn’t sound like he said anything about anything."
Hugo- "That’s kinda of true, dude. He’s worse than Yoda."
James-"All right. Y’all head to your heart of the island and I’ll go get the magic leprechaun out of that well."    {Hearts and Minds}
Umm, yeah...there's some wonderfully evasive but convincing sounding bits of information for ya.

A Tale of Two Cities, Three Time Lines, Do-Overs, and an Island that "Technically, you know, we don't even know if we're on an Island"
Time was irrelevant on the "Island" and in the sideways and in the place of the Castaway meet up.
Christian tells Jack that everything that happened to him was real, so this includes "Island" events, Flashes, and the Oceanic 6 craziness.  Hmmm...Perhaps it was only as real as he made it.   Even if it was a matrix/virtual or physical with simulations incorporated, or a real mystical island, or metaphysical planes, and/or states of consciousness,  all of those still count as a real experience for them.

Desmond and Jack share important dialogue before Desmond descends into the light cavern.
Desmond- "This doesn't matter, you know...Him destroying the island, you destroying him. It doesn't matter. You know, you're gonna lower me into that light, and I'm gonna go somewhere else. A place where we can be with the ones we love, and not have to ever think about this damn island again. And you know the best part, Jack?"
Jack- "What?"
Desmond- "You're in this place. You know, we sat next to each other on Oceanic 815. It never crashed. We spoke to each other. You seemed happy. You know, maybe I can find a way to bring you there too."
Jack- "Desmond, I tried that once. There are no shortcuts, no do-overs. What happened happened. Trust me, I know. All of this matters."

Yet we've constantly witnessed the loop concept with all the castaway's and their stay on the "Island" and in their Flashes.  We've even seen Oceanic plane wreckage already inside the caves.   Come on! Desmond "saw" different versions of Charlie dying and had Flashes before his Eyes, and in The Constant with times/places.  We've seen them refer to moments of remembering things during the "Island" adventure,  they even reference what their supposed to and not supposed to do as if it's been done before, saw proof of different versions of things and scenes, and people, items and dialogue repeated over and over again.   But obviously in the grand scheme of things and the emotional closure to the story,  all of these facts and details were placed in the category of "Irrelevant Island Items".

Fantasy, Fairy Tales and the Flightline Motel: 
Enlightened Hurley has a mission to bring Sayid along on one of his errands to pick up bass guitarist Charlie Pace of Drive Shaft and deliver him to the Fusion benefit concert.  Sideways Charlie is totally drunk, and even after levelheaded coaxing from Hugo he won't go to the show.  Hugo came prepared with a fucking tranquilizer dart gun to ensure the transport of the unwilling rocker.   Someone please tell me why oh why there is a need for tranquilizer dart guns in the sideways?
This is supposed to be the same enlightened Charlie that was the guide to Desmond's enlightenment. WTF?!  How come we don't see any sign of that Charlie here?!   BTW Charlie's important  message to us via his tattoo is "Living is easy with eyes closed. Misunderstanding all you see."

We revisited the same motel from Lockdown.   The very same one that Anthony Cooper stayed in after he staged his death and instructed John to get the money from the safety deposit box, and where John proposed to Helen.

It is important to keep in mind the "sideways" also shows us people lying, on the run, kidnapping/taken hostage, embezzling, killing, dying and the inception of babies.

Fire + Water:
It is the beautiful Eden like cavern that contains the picture perfect stream and warm bright light, which simultaneously contains fire and brimstone.  However, this ancient containment chamber has been constructed and decorated by man.
When Desmond removed the giant pawn from the hole in the heart of the "Island" in an effort to put the light out, he thought this action would let him leave "this place".     
Evil wasn't really unleashed, but this act was one part to liberating the (MIB)/Locke from the "Island".    After all, (MIB)/Locke and Desmond were seeking the same thing the Lostie's ultimate goal was in the sideways... to "leave".
Putting out the light played a role in giving us the end of "MIB", and of "Jacob" who just disappeared.  This ended the "Island" game for the twins.

I hope that box is big enough for you to conjure yourself up an Ajira plane that can leave Hydra Island:
Just like the magic box of the "Island", the sideways seemed to utilize the concept of "If you believe it" it can happen.

In the "sideways" did Jack imagine he had a son?  Locke tells him he doesn't have a son, yet Locke remarked about his son looking just like him in last week's episode.   Also in the "sideways" Locke can get up and walk pretty much immediately after major spinal surgery.

On the "Island" Chesty Frank believed he could fly that plane out of there, not just on a wing and a prayer but with duct tape! And son of a bitch he did it!
This is also where we learn-
Miles-"I don't believe in a lot of things, but I do believe in duct tape" line is said, and I gotta say...I'm stealing that awesome line for future use! 
Miles will be Frank's eyes while he drives the plane getting it ready for takeoff, and Ricky Boy, who finally realized he really wants to live,  will relay Miles' info back to Frank the pilot.

Here "on Island" and "sideways" give us constant examples of people appearing and disappearing and wishes granted. {We've seen this in "off Island" and "Oceanic Six" events as well.}

The "Island" of misfit Castaways still keeps secrets:
The "Island" was indeed the place you go to be tested and challenged, to learn, to find what you lost, to heal from your pain, to grow, become enlightened and then move on.  We have six seasons proof of that.   Rose even mentions to Bernard the "Island" is the place where you to "get better".   We have indeed been privy to a few castaways going through the challenges there, finding redemption, seeing truth, letting go and moving on more than a handful of times. We've even seen instances where people opted out; Ana Lucia.

The other point we can't ignore is that we've been told many times the "Island" adventure is a separate place from the "REAL WORLD", hence making it an "UNREAL WORLD" of some sort.
We can go back and prove the "Island" manipulated and altered people's perception and memory, drugged them, and brain washed them. We've seen proof of the illusion, of things being faked, contrived, use of costumes, wigs/beards, props, decoy villages, scripts, cameras, fake bird sounds, and so much more.  The visitors were assigned roles, jobs and names.  Their needs were met; including food drops, medical supplies and some comforts of home.
We've even seen the "blurring" of on and off "Island" events present themselves while someone was in a sleeping-dream state.  Direct examples are Something Nice Back Home and The Cost of Living.
We know the "Island" to be an "Island" of magical power and such, and blurring of "Island" events and off "Island" events were always there.
Ultimately the "Island" did not want its true identity revealed!

Games, Games and More Games:
In this episode Christian reminds Jack that everything that happened to him in his life was real, with real people.  This includes the "Island" experience.

The Island- The show did bring games,  Easter eggs, hidden subliminal clues with books, props and actual dialogue within the on screen "Island" story and ARG'S.
Do I take back my bold typed clue words about the game, mental health, simulation/virtual, matrix, things happening in the head/mind/consciousness, events blurring together, and all those things?  NO!!
No matter what the Island is not an "Island" or at least not your typical cay of land sitting in the middle of open water island.

The game element was there all the way up until the very end.  There was no doubt about it.   We know "this place" had rules that change and vary according to who the new leader is, moves, timer, countdown, trades, cheats, loopholes, levels, leaders, pieces/pawns, odds, and points.  You could also leave the game/experience and come back into it or completely opt out if you're not ready to continue.  We've even seen proof of literally starting over in the same position.  There were goals of the game/adventure such as slay the monster, blow up the sub or the plane and save the world, and these challenges is what is supposed to liberate you from your own suffering and making you change.
We can look at the "Island" as a stop in the adventure/experience/game/journey as one of the levels/planes.  We can even acknowledge the final scene in this episode with Christian opening the church doors as next level or "Game over."
We're told time didn't matter on the "Island" and in the last stop on Jack's sideways, yet there always was a blurring of events; as if things were running simultaneously.

The "Island" Whispers:
I call fucking shenanigans on Michael telling Hurley that the whispers are of those who couldn't move on.    Ask yourself, "move on" from where?     Automatically wouldn't you "assume" that makes it "purgatory" or "afterlife" of sorts?   Or is it just the bleed through of voices from outside of the experience/game?   It still fits either concept.    Technically the general "voices" explanation is still in question, as the "Island's" identity wasn't explained and it appears that the two relate to one another.    I must also question why Michael would have not been redeemed when he fulfilled his duty on the freighter and was actually given permission from "Christian" that he can go.  I guess in the end it was Michael who couldn't "let go".

Enlightenment:
“Careful observation is the only key to true and complete awareness.”

In the six seasons of notes I've presented to you something that was a constant is my understanding that the castaways were indeed on a journey of enlightenment.  You have seen this research and photos in my notes before, but I've left a few reminders here:
Dharma- Teachings of the Buddha  {Dharma Initiative=The Start of the 8 fold path.}
Black or White...it's about the balance. 
The images shown to us through the story connect with Dharma, Karma and Zen Buddhist practices: The Bagua, wheel, light, colors, Dogen, the temple, waves, fish, mirrors, water, spiral, consciousness, etc..
Bardo, a Tibetan word means "Intermediate State" also translated as "transitional state" or "in-between state.
Together "six bardos" form a classification of states of consciousness into six broad types:
The Bardo of This Life, Bardo of Meditation, Bardo of Dream, Bardo of Dying, Bardo of Dharmata, and the Bardo of Existence.
Any state of consciousness can form a type of "intermediate state", intermediate between other states of consciousness. Indeed, one can consider any momentary state of consciousness a Bardo, since it lies between our past and future existences; it provides us with the opportunity to experience reality, which is always present but obscured by the projections and confusions that are due to our previous unskillful actions.
The Tibetan Book of the Dead ...there is in fact no single Tibetan title corresponding to the Tibetan Book of the Dead. The overall name given to the whole  cycle is Profound Dharma of Self-Liberation through the Intention of the Peaceful and Wrathful Ones or as Karma Lingpa's Peaceful and Wrathful Ones.
The Liberation Through Hearing During the Intermediate State or Bardo Thodol is a funerary text.
The Liberation Through Hearing During the Intermediate State also mentions three other Bardo: those of "life" (or ordinary waking consciousness), of "Dhyana" (meditation), and of "dream" (the dream state during normal sleep).
In the third Bardo the soul encounters the Lord of Death, a fearsome demonic deity who appears in smoke and fire, and subjects the soul to a Judgment. If the dead person protests that he has done no evil, the Lord of Death holds up before him the Mirror of Karma, "wherein every good and evil act is vividly reflected."  Now demons approach and begin to inflict torments and punishments upon the soul for his evil deeds.

The Battle of Two Wills:
The storm is raging and rain is pouring down on Jack and MIB/Locke, who literally have a physical showdown on the cliff.   It was like watching two Gladiators fight to the death!
Locke stabs Jack in the gut and starts to cut open his neck.  This is the literal bleeding through of "Island" events and the sideways. {Or even facing a memory.}   Jack tries to choke the life out of (MIB)/Locke; all the while the "Island" is falling to pieces around them.   Because the magic of the "Island" is broken and MIB/Locke became "mortal" {at least he "became" mortal to Jack and the rest},  Locke is shot by the bullet Kate saved for him.  The sunlight starts to show itself through the storm and MIB/Locke smiles knowing "You're too late".   Ultimately Jack kicks MIB/Locke off the cliff sending him to his final death and finally liberating the MIB-LOCKE from the "Island".    {Poor Locke, he's always tossed out a window, thrown off a cliff, falls down a well, gets shot in the leg.}

In the sideways Jack is congratulated on his "Nice work"  by a nurse who is wheeling sedated Locke from surgery into room 218.   Jack's neck is bleeding.  The nurse informs Jack that sedated Locke is already waking up. 
Jack-"Mr. Locke. Can you hear me?"  
Locke opens his eyes and Jack explains to him he just had major surgery, "Try not to move and just relax, okay?"    
Locke is happy because "It worked".  He has use of his legs again.  When he moves his toes, memory of his "Island" experience floods him and he asks Dr. Jack, "Did you see that? You don't remember". 
All of a sudden Jack has a Flash of him and Locke looking down into the Swan Hatch.    Locke's awaking inspires him to literally get out of the bed, knowing "We need to go" and he asks Jack, "Will you come with me?"
Locke is truly happy that he "gets it" while in denial Jack feels, "We're not going anywhere".    Upset Jack needs to go see his son, but Locke reminds him, "You don't have a son."   
Jack is confused. On his way out of the room Locke tells the stubborn doctor, "I hope that somebody does for you what you just did for me."  
Jack literally just liberated Locke from his suffering.

The pieces are moved:
With the sun shining and order somewhat restored, severely injured Jack jokes with Kate, "Find me some thread and I can count to five."
Kate informs James that Locke's dead, "It's over."  
Although the sun is shining the "Island" is still rumbling and breaking apart.
James-"Sure don't feel like it's over."
The "Island" is still crumbling because whatever Desmond turned off Jack needs to turn it on again. {This is exactly what James had to do with the vending machine when he was with Juliet Carlson to buy an Apollo bar from rack G23. And it's technically legal. lol.  Reboot.}  
 Jack feels if it doesn't work the rest of them need to be on that plane.   Kate encourages Jack to let the "Island" sink, but Jack can't do that.   James thinks he can manage to get the boat across the channel in time.
James thanks the Doc for everything.    Ben feels if the "Island's" going down that he's going down with it.   Hugo is "with" Jack.   Jack wants Kate to go and get Claire on that plane.
Kate is sad, "Tell me I'm gonna see you again."
They passionately kiss goodbye and they both say "I love you".
James and Kate find they literally have to jump from the cliff to make it over to the boat that will bring them to Hydra Island and the plane.
Of course this reminds me of the Zen proverb- "Let go over a cliff, die completely, and then come back to life. After that you cannot be deceived."

Jack will head back into the depths of the cavern to plug the pawn back in, reigniting the light; rebooting the "Island" and restoring balance.
Jack, Hurley and Ben understand that this is Jack's final quest because this is the way it has to be, even though Hurley accuses him of committing suicide.
Hurley is handed the proverbial torch of protecting the "light". 
Jack does the whole "Drink this" mumbo jumbo minus the "incantation" in order to make things legal, but he still manages the "Now you're like me" closing statement to the communion.   Hurley will only accept the job on a temporary basis.
{Jack put Hurley in charge of a very important job in Everybody Hates Hugo.}

In the depths of the raging cavern Jack rescues disappointed Desmond.  Desmond feels he has to put it back, "It's like a train!" 
Jack releases Desmond to go home and be with his wife and son {How does Jack know all that info?} and he will plug the ancient stone pawn back in.  Jack will see Brother in another life.
Severely injured Jack completes his last task of restoring the light and the water. 

Kate pleads with Claire, who thinks the "Island" made her crazy ass insane, to go with her.   Claire's concerned that she no longer knows how to be a mother.   Kate convinces her she's not alone and that none of them knows what to do at first.
Kate, James and Claire make their flight with Frank, Enos and Ricky Boy.
Frank's leap of faith worked in enabling them to take flight.

Hurley, with his new role, dubs Ben his number two in charge because he has experience.  Desmond will be on the "Island" with them.    Hurley will run the "Island" a new way, a better way than Jacob did. He will do what he does best, take care of people.
By the way  a funny bit, Hugo always knew he was "going back to the caves, after all no one lives there anymore, so he won't bother anybody. He's going to live alone, be one of those crazy guys with the big beard, no clothes, who's naked and throws doody at people."   He mentions this in Dave.

Some place safe:
In the "sideways" it's Kate that meets up with Jack at the Fusion concert (where workers are literally breaking everything down and packing it away) to inform him it's over.  Jack is looking for his son and of course he doesn't seem to be around.   Jack remembers Kate when she touches his face and tells him she's missed him so much.  Jack has Flashes of them on the "Island" but still resists and wonders "What is happening to me?  Who are you?"
Kate convinces Jack to go with her so he'll understand.

Changed Locke arrives in a yellow Shoreline taxi at Mrs. Hawking's white church {Lamppost Station} that contained the Dharma Initiative's Lamppost Station. Yes, the very same one that enabled the Oceanic Six to return to the "Island".
Locke wheels himself to the entrance where he comes upon Ben sitting.  Ben shares that most of them are already inside.
Ben- "I'm very sorry for what I did to you, John.  I was selfish, jealous...I wanted everything you had."
Puzzled John asks, "What did I have?"
Ben- "You were special, John. But I wasn't."
John- "Well if it helps, Ben. I forgive you." 
Although that helps and matters more than Ben can say, he still isn't ready to join up with the rest of the castaways.  He still has some things he needs to work out, "I think I'll stay here a while."
It is Ben that prompts John to get out of that chair.
John walks into the church a completely changed man, free of all the things that crippled him.
Hugo pokes his head outside the church, sees Ben and thanks him for being a real good number two.
Ben- "You were a great number one, Hugo."

Jack arrives to the Lamppost station/church in his shitty ol Bronco with Kate.   He feels he's at {church} the place where he was going to have his father's funeral; he died in Australia.  Although I remember Jack telling Sayid in the episode Three Minutes, that he was going to L.A. and right from the airport to the cemetery to bury his father.
He asks Kate,"Why did you bring me here?"
Kate- "Because this is where you were gonna have your father's funeral."
Jack still doesn't completely comprehend what is going on. Kate will wait for him inside for when he's ready to leave.

The Long Con: 
Abracadabra, smoke and mirrors!
So...was the LOST adventure supposed to be a living breathing chess game and puzzle?  We were led to "believe" that it was. 
The blissful ending we saw with Christian and Jack and the ambiguous explanation given leaves much to interpretation yet on the other hand it was definitive...closure.
However, if we're asked to believe the "Island" is a real physical place, with real people, complete with a shape shifting smoke monster, a frozen donkey wheel that can move the "Island", time travel,  mysterious wishes being granted, ghosts, whispers, an ageless man, appearing and disappearing people, healing properties, world saving electromagnetic forces,  a Willy Wonka Eggdicator machine that determines if someone if good or bad, a cork that plugs a hole in a bright light cavern, reset button, special people, twins who've been playing an eternal game, and an invisibility cloak around the "Island",  then we as the viewer can if we choose to,  ignore certain key "facts" that make the ending we saw correct and create whatever world we want to.

The "Island" may very well have been a "real island" that had fantastical properties.  It could be an "Island" that was utilized by rich people, military, scientists (The DeGroots, Hanso, Mittleos, Mittlewerk) for the purpose of study, and a place to bring "lost" people and rehabilitate them.  Or even a metaphysical level of the journey.   For the castaways this still would be the place that they did share their coming together via a staged plane crash, the tests and challenges they faced under the guise of a game, where they would learn to confront their demons, face their fears, see truth, end addiction, forgive themselves, forgive others, get over abandonment issues and other emotional issues that paralyzed them,  learn to let go of their attachments and suffering and then be free to live their lives in the "real world".    It would have been this time spent together that was indeed the most important to Jack, Locke and the rest of the castaways.   They were the people who meant the most in the most important time of their lives, who shared in their life changing growth. 

Wonderland:
In the sideways environment we were also mixed up in the world of Jabberwocky. Things were wrong and backwards at times.  People switched sides, teams and even roles and jobs.
In The End we still witnessed people having to read and follow instructions and diagrams.
I just gotta ask...What are we logically supposed to make of the entire Oceanic 6 era?  I'll just chalk it up to my thoughts about it being a level of the "Island" experience/adventure/exercise/game/journey.
But even Dorothy was able to wake up from her experience and realize what parts were real and which were not.  The people in her real life bled over into the adventure she had while she was unconscious/sleeping.

Perception:
This has always been a story about perception.  This is why we all extrapolated different things from the story.  I can see why fans may not be happy with the conclusion that was revealed because it did not end with the ending you may have perceived or hoped for.
Did we spend the last six years watching a story about people caught up in the middle of a real life issue that involved a stay on an "Island" that really was a lab, run by powerful people all for the sake of betterment of man, or a real plane crash on a magical "Island", or is it strictly the metaphysical  journey of levels of birth, enlightenment, death and rebirth.
We were always meant to take our own journey through this story and we were always supposed to take our own views from it and see things when we were ready to see them.

Things to Note...Questions we leave on the table...
* Jack, Locke and Desmond worked as a team to lower Desmond into the light, yet all three of them had different motives for going into the light.
* Your mind creates things/thoughts/ideas/fear/etc.. One aspect of the "Island" adventure is to "believe" and believing in what you see/hear/experience/etc.
* Locke is Locke.
* What was with all the eye color changes throughout the six seasons?
* At what point in time did "God loves you as he loved Jacob"  happen?
* There are many episodes that although I feel connected to Locke's issues, I can see connect to Jack's journey.
* Was it really Jacob who invited Charles Widmore to the island; to bring Desmond and prep him for his mission to put out the light?
* One aspect of the journey it to let go of one's negative self and ego.
* Life, Death, Rebirth.
* Technically Desmond interfered in the sideways and pushed people to "wake up". 

Vocabulary and Research...
* Arnold Böcklin: was a symbolist Swiss painter-16 October 1827 – 16 January 1901. He pained The Isle of the Dead and The Return.

I'm sure the sideways (waiting area) represents very different things to each of us.  We were only told it was a place they "made" to find each other.    I do have my own thoughts on what it is; of course this is based on the story I perceived through the six seasons.
Nonetheless, here is some insight to what the word Purgatory technically means:
* Purgatory: any situation causing suffering. A miserable situation.
   From Latin purgātōrium:  cleansing. Cognate to English (purge): Tending to cleanse or purge.
- In Roman Catholic and other religious teachings; a temporary state of the dead.
- is the condition or process of purification or temporary punishment
- (verb) 1). To carry out a task; EXECUTE, gas, electrocute, shoot, finish, hang, bear, create, enact
             2). To reach a goal.  
- Additional Synonyms: Abaddon, Gehenna, Hades, abyss, bottomless pit, everlasting fire, fire and brimstone, infernal regions, limbo, lower world, nether world, perdition, pit, place of torment, suffering, underworld.
- Mental suffering:  affliction, agony, anguish,bemoaning, bereavement, bewailing, care, dejection, deploring, depression, desolation, despair, despondency, discomfort, disquiet, distress, dole, dolor, gloom, grievance, harassment, heartache, heartbreak, infelicity, lamentation, lamenting, malaise, melancholy, misery, mortification, mournfulness, mourning, pain, purgatory, regret, remorse, repining, rue, sadness, sorrow, torture, trial, tribulation, trouble, unhappiness, vexation, woe, worry, wretchedness.

Circle:
Ensō is a Japanese word meaning "circle " and a concept strongly associated with Zen.  The story begins with Jack opening his eye and ends with him closing his eye in the same position as we  were introduced to him.  Locke found what he was looking for on the "Island" a long time ago, as did many other castaways.   Jack's full circle experience on the "Island"  happened for a reason.   He was the one who admittedly checked back into the "Island" experience to try to fix his broken self.  He would not learn to let go and beat his "demon" until he came out of the "Island" experience a fixed new man, free of the chains/things that bound him.   When he fulfilled his quests there, he was finally able to leave/die from the "Island's" learning ground and move on and have total peace.
Let's look at what we were shown...In the sideways Jack literally tells Locke "If I can fix you, Mr. Locke, that’s all the peace I’ll need."   And on "Island" Jack's last quest is to kill the "monster" {the negative}, assume a new role to give him purpose and restore peace and protection to "this place", which he does.  Although it took Jack longer to understand why he was in "this place",  he finally completed the course and ultimately liberated himself.

Can I just say that even after all we witnessed my favorite character is still Locke.  He was the one who did see truth in knowing they were brought to the island for a reason.  Even when he would stumble the goodhearted and nurturing leader was there.  He was a tough warrior who had hope and fought for the cause even when no one wanted to listen to him.  Yes, we saw his spirit broken, but the warrior was still inside there.   Even then Locke's the one who made me believe that I can overcome obstacles and find a purpose. "Don't tell me what I can't do."

Live Together, Die Alone:  
It doesn't matter if we observed the castaways learn to find and forgive themselves and know love under the guise of a game, or if it was a literal depiction of the path of enlightenment and onto Nirvana, Jack and these people needed to learn to heal themselves, coexist and work as a team for the greater good.  They played a deep and important role in each other's life changing enlightenment.

“There is no coming to consciousness without pain”:
We all went into this blind. We were never promised anything.  We were never told how, why and what the deal is with "This Place"-the "Island", we were never told the rules of the "Island" adventure and/or game, what they were and how they work.  You always had a choice to continue on with the adventure to where ever it was going to lead or to opt out.   For all intents and purposes we took this journey just as blindly as the Castaways did.   We only learned information when a Castaway learned the answer.  We were always meant to take the entire journey along with them just as if we were on the "Island" with them.
Jack took longer to be able to heal himself and only when he completes the acts of liberating "the monster"/Locke on "Island" and Locke in the Sideways" was he able to see truth and free himself.   I believe this is why we're led to believe "MIB" "assumed" Locke's ID; it was because Jack had to literally face the one person/Locke on the "Island" who represented his opposition/negative, the one who challenged him most. 

All of this didn't make my own journey through all of this any less important or rewarding. 
The LOST story is filled with so many layers of everything that makes up people, life, struggle, pain, rewards, love, hope, purpose, destiny, death and rebirth.   We all had many ways to watch this show, and different things to take from it, or you didn't have to take anything at all from it.  My entire experience with this LOST journey became a part of my life, played a role in my own personal growth and enlightenment, and made me a better person.   This story changed my life on so many levels.  I was open to all the possibilities this story had to offer.  I enjoyed the magic even while it inadvertently became my teacher and guide.   There always was a message, lessons and answers in the story.  We were able to watch this epic unfold in a literal and metaphoric way.

Were we all meant to come out of this as Zen masters?  No. But guess what?  The idea was to clue us into "awareness",  our consciousness, our own purpose...destiny.   Some of us did indeed "get it" and some may need a longer to, but that's okay and that doesn't mean the journey stops for any of us.
We're all flawed.  People are flawed. 
We were shown that everything we do does matter and affects everyone we touch... forever, and, that "time" really means "now".   Like it or not we make an imprint on the universe.

The Journey:
This journey did provide us with hints, clues, reveals and answers about the "Island" along the way, but some chose to not see them and that's okay because that part of the story is secondary.   LOST also gave us hints to death and "this place" being a place of punishment, suffering and learning throughout the years.   Sometimes it was literal, other times it was subliminal and/or metaphoric.

Christian explains to Jack that his friends "died" at different points.  We don't know how much "time" came and went and it doesn't even matter.   It seems that each castaway had their own individual experience and enlightenment and agreed that when they all were ready (of course they waited for Jack to have his awakening in the "sideways") and they were in their "some place safe",  they would leave one place and move on to the next...together.

As we see literal reconnection's and reunions of the people who once lived on the "Island": Charlie finally connects with pregnant Claire, Kate delivers Aaron...again, Sun and Jin (who speak perfect English and are pregnant with Ji Yeon),  James and Juliet (at the rebooted vending machine share the same dialogue as when James was reunited with her at the implosion site on the "Island"),  Sayid and Shannon (really?!), etc., is all in preparation for Jack's being able to truly let go and move on to the next phase...all together.

You should ask yourself how this journey was for you overall.  Did you have fun?  Did you enjoy the ride?  Did it excite you every week?  Did it make you happy?  Did it open your sense of wonder and imagination?    Did you truly look, see, hear and understand?   Did you find answers or insight?   Did you read more books?  Did you write about the show at all (blogs/forums/message boards)?   Did you make new friends?   Did you find love?    Did you learn how to handle different kinds of situations?   Did you learn to look at things through new eyes?   Did you learn to think outside the box?  Did you mock other people for thinking outside the box?  Did you learn trust?  Did you learn how to have hope?   Did you find a way to forgive?   Did you learn patience?   Did you learn how to treat people?  Did you learn about Karma?    Did you grow?  Did it give you wings to fly?   Did you discover the real you?  Did you find your purpose?   Or, Do you just feel like you were Scooby Doo'd?

The Destination:
It doesn't matter who we were, it only matter who we are.
Jack, through his long struggle to heal himself,  finally came to realize who he really was.   He went into the journey one way and came out another. {Although to me he still looked a bit confused and apprehensive.}

On "Island"  Jack wakes up laying on the rocks at the stream like when we saw Jacob discover his brother "dead" after pushing him into the lighted cavern. 

Inside the church Jack ascends the steps and enters the room that displays a lot of Buddhist, Zen, Dharma, Hindu, Christian and other religious and spiritual icons, and the casket he believes holds his father's body.  When Jack touches the coffin he is flooded with Flash memory of his time on the "Island".
I gotta tell ya, when he opens the casket I really thought Jack would see himself in there.  But of course the coffin is empty and Jack's disappointed.  Christian's body never seems to ever actually be in a coffin. Does that tell you anything? Hmmm?
Still not understanding, Jack turns to see Christian there.
Jack-"You died."
Christian confirms he did.
Jack-"Then how are you here right now?"
Christian-"How are you here?"
He gives Jack time to think about it.
Jack-"I died too." {He looks a bit unaware and puzzled}
He cries and his father holds him.  They tell each other "I love you."
Jack-"Are you real?"
Christian laughs- "I sure hope so. Yeah, I'm real. You're real. Everything that's ever happened to you is real. All those people in the church...they're all real too."
Jack-"They're all...they're all dead?"   {Real and Dead...at the same time!}
Christian-"Everyone dies sometime, kiddo.  Some of them before you, some long after you."
Jack-"Why are they all here now?"
Christian-"Well there is no 'now' here."     { N O W H E R E }
Jack-"Where are we, dad?"
Christian-"Well this is the place that you all made together so that you can find one another.  The most important part of your life was the time that you spent with these people. That's why all of you are here. Nobody does it alone, Jack. You needed all of them and they need you."
Jack-"For what?"
Christian-"To remember...And to...let go."
Jack-"Kate said that we were leaving."
Christian-"Not leaving, no. Moving on."
Jack-"Where are we going?"
Christian smiles-"Let's go find out."
We are led very lovingly into the revelation that in the "sideways" the castaways were waiting for stubborn Jack to have his eye opening moment to truly seeing where he is in his existence/being.

The Over the Rainbow closing scene was beautiful.  Jack still seemed confused by his awakening but was enveloped by the warmth and love of his friends. They chose to be of a collective consciousness and physically move on together.
Christian was with Jack while he traveled his path.   It may have taken Jack longer to reach that point than his friends, but he made progress until he finally did.  "It takes as long as it takes."

Science vs. Faith:
There was a way for these two sides to live in balance. You can be a person who encompasses both.

I still stand by all my research that gave us potential insight to the other layers of the story.   I have taken my notes based on facts and information presented within the story itself not conjecture and speculation.   I've always been a person whom believes in only what  I can see.   We all can see the layers and themes in the story and we can even entertain that some of what we saw wasn't real, again all based on the "information" they gave us. But we know questions only lead to more questions; which is what the word Hydra means.
I did always warn you that people and things are not what you think.

✈ Was the "Island" a real island that just happened to have magical properties?
- It was a place you can go back and forth from.
- A place of study, teaching, learning, healing.
- Food drops are made to it.
- The entire Dharma Initiative was able to run power to it, build barracks, hatches and stations all over it, yet conned it's Pearl Station workers with thinking their notebooks actually went somewhere.
- No children allowed except for Ethan, Miles, Aaron, Zack, Emma, Ji Yeon, Jacob, MIB, Dan, Charlotte, Annie and Ben. And we can't ignore in "this place"  life was created where there wasn't supposed to be the creation of life.

✈ Was the "Island" a created environment? (Either physically or virtually)
- Items appear here, pretty much upon request.
- It is referred to as a "magic box".
- People die and are seen again.
- Certain people seem to heal from deadly injuries.
- No children allowed except for Ethan, Miles, Aaron, Zack, Emma, Ji Yeon, Jacob, MIB, Dan, Charlotte, Annie and Ben. And we can't ignore in "this place" life was created where there wasn't supposed to be the creation of life.

✈ Was the "Island" a form of purgatory or metaphysical limbo?
- Although this limbo not only challenged it's visitors, but it also allowed fighting, war and more pain.
- No children allowed except for Ethan, Miles, Aaron, Zack, Emma, Ji Yeon, Jacob, MIB, Dan, Charlotte, Annie and Ben. And we can't ignore in "this place" life was created where there wasn't supposed to be the creation of life.
- Jacob could not grant absolution for sins.  But he could have you hang around looking youthful for a really, really long fucking time! (if you believed in that enough) WoooooHooooo!

✈ Which category do you place these "Island" facts?
- It's a bloody snow globe where on and off "Island" events blur together.
- Items, props, clothes, cars, books, images, people and dialogue are repeated over and over.
- Jacob "plucked" people out of their existence and brought them there.

The End:
As Jack is reconnecting with his "Island" friends in the church/Lamppost station with a new understanding and acceptance, on "Island" Jack makes his way back to the bamboo forest.   We get a shot of Jack's white tennis shoe he gave to Christian, now is worn and tattered but still hangs from the tree.  Jack assumes his position and is met by Vincent who is there to ensure Jack doesn't do this alone.  Jack watches a plane fly overhead.    {Dogs by their very nature are filled with unconditional love.}
In the church/Lamppost the "Island" friends take seats in the pews, almost as if readying themselves for another flight to adventure.
Christian opens the door in the back of the church letting in the warm bright light...Whatever or where ever that is or represents is up to you.
Jack's eye closes signifying the end of this journey.


The wreckage revealed at the end of the episode could mean there was a plane crash and they all died then, hence making the whole island adventure some crazy ass purgatory where magic tricks and illusions run ramped and people can  die over and over.    Or the wreckage is staged for the next round of lost people to arrive on the "Island"  lab to face their challenges.
Or the explanation I feel...simply, it is closure to the place that brought us all together. 

The episode was GREAT and it ended as I expected it to.  I feel a warm peace with the conclusion.  I thought it was beautiful and fitting.  I knew it wouldn't please everyone, how could it?
I may talk about a lot of things in my notes/podcast as far as the exploration of the game element, matrix, what's real or fake, contrived imagery, simulation, blurring of events, etc.   But no matter what parts of the science, technology or mythology I'd address I was always sure to address the metaphor and my take on their journey to enlightenment.  Who knows why this is a layer of the story I always gravitated to, maybe it's because coincidentally  have been trying to put the pieces of my broken self back together and it's one hell of a process.

I completely understand the viewer who watched the show and invested just as much time and followed the mythology, science, religion and other facts that "they" spoon fed us, and is let down that their journey did not have the payoff they expected.  Life is full of surprises, aint it?!  
I never cared if the ideas I brought to the table were right or wrong and it never bothered me if people didn't agree with me, for me it was always about the journey, the exciting exploration and possibilities, and the fun in trying to solve a puzzle.  For me all of the research and note taking was a blast!

In the end all the fun smoke and mirrors, mystery, mythology, time travel, food drops and all that other wonderful mysterious stuff wasn't the point of the story.   It has always been about the journey itself, the journey to enlightenment and the "Island" residents, the people that we connected with and fell in love with.   We rooted for these special people while they were on their journey struggling to find themselves, through their pain, hope, growth, letting go, their quest for balance, to feel whole and know love, to find faith in themselves and enlightenment...their ability to keep moving...to ultimately moving on.   It was a beautiful and memorable story filled with heart.

The "Island" is still a place of "Whatever you wish for" can be!  I love my world of imagination, exploration, and escapism, but I am also conscious enough to be open to the things that will enrich my life and my being, and LOST is one experience that I will have with me forever.   I had so much fun with every aspect of this adventure.  I loved being an active participant in the story.

My heart is broken that it is over and I must learn to let go at some point, and  I must have hope that it's ending will make way for a new beautiful experience for my life's journey as well as yours.  I did go into all of this one person and I too came out of it another person. 
The journey doesn't stop here as it is ongoing.
I truly thank you all for taking this journey with me.
Namaste.

I can't help but wonder if Desmond ever read Our Mutual Friend before he "died".

Love to all who are "LOST"™

Special

Let's talk about LOST! Special.









Open eye.
Michael calls out looking for Walt.
Charlie walks up asking Michael if he’s seen Claire’s bags.
Michael-“Have you seen my son?”
Charlie- “You seen her bags?”
Michael- “Claire’s?”
Charlie- “Her luggage. It’s not been brought back here. No one seems to know what happened to it.”
Michael apologizes, he doesn’t know; he’s just looking for Walt. Charlie hasn’t seen Walt. Jack {Key around neck} walks up carrying firewood. Michael asks Jack if he’s seen his boy out there.
Jack says no, “He was at the caves.”
Michael shares Walt took his dog for a walk and he told him to stay close as usual.
Michael-“You listened to your old man when you were 10, right?”
Jack claims to have listened a little too well.
Hurley comes over to tell the two dudes he has a new tourney lined up. They’re playing for the last of the deodorant sticks, “You dogs up for some golf?”
Michael has to go find his kid. “If Walt shows up tell him I said stay here until I get back.”
Michael continues his search.
Hurley mentions to Jack that Michael seems to hate being a dad.
Jack-“Nah. It’s just…a lot of hard work.”
Michael continues calling out for Walt.
Hurley scoffs and says, “Nah. He hates it.”
“Walt!” Michael is pissed. He continues his search through the jungle.
{Flash Whoosh}




“This is the one.” Michael and Susan are in the store looking at baby cribs. He’s excited he’s found “My baby’s crib.”
Susan looks at the price tag and remarks it will look great in the alley they’ll be living in. “This is three months rent.”
Michael wants the best for this kid but Susan insists they can't afford this. Michael feels their baby in this crib is a happy kid. {Note the store has items corresponding to the island.}
Michael tells Susan he talked to Andy and he can send some work Michael’s way.
Susan-“Construction? What about your art?”
Michael assures her he’s not giving it up, just taking a break until she finishes law school. “Pass the bar, get hired by some fancy ass high paying law firm.”
He’ll get back to painting eventually. Meanwhile Susan can support him and Walt in the manner to which they soon will be accustomed. Michael wants to name him after his dad.
Susan- “Walter. Walter Lloyd.”
Michael- “Lloyd? Oh, all right. That's why you won't marry me. It's not that you think marriage is too prosaic; you just want him to have your last name.”
Susan- “Hey. You want me to agree to Walter or what?”
{Flash Whoosh}



In the jungle Locke hands Walt a knife.
Boone and Vincent {Collar/leash.} are watching.
Walt throws the knife at the tree and it doesn’t penetrate it.
Walt-“Man, I suck!”
Locke-“You can do better than that.”
Boone-“You might want to take it easy on him.” {On whom?}
Locke explains-"See this knot Walt…I want you to aim for it. Right here. Focus on it…alright? Picture it…in your mind's eye. You know what that is, the mind's eye?”
Walt knows it’s like a picture in your head.
Locke tells him to do it again but, “See it. See it before you do it. Visualize the path. See it. See it.” {It's kind of like using the force, like a Jedi. Also note Locke touches Walt’s hand.}
Walt focuses. We get a shot of Vincent. Walt throws the knife and sticks his mark! Boone is impresses and Locke knew Walt had it in him.
Walt-“It was weird. I actually saw it in my mind or something, like it was real.”
Locke- “Who's to say it wasn’t?”
Michael comes upon them and he’s pissed! He takes the knife from Walt and tells him to take Vincent and go back to camp now.
Michael- “You gave my boy a knife.”
Locke- “You should’ve seen what…”
Michael-“Don’t tell me what I should’ve seen, man! We were back home I’d call the police on your ass! Encouraging a kid to sneak away from his parent, giving him a knife like this!”
Locke- “Walt knows his own mind.”
Michael pulls the knife on Locke. “Ah, don’t talk to me about my son like you know him.” Locke needs Michael to calm down.
Michael-“You keep playing my son against me…and I’m gonna have a p…”
Boone tackles Michael and holds the knife to him, “The man said calm down.”
Michael punches Boone and says, “What are you his attack dog?”
Michael was the one waving the knife around and Boone was just trying to make sure Michael didn’t hurt someone.
Locke knows it’s been difficult for Michael to bond with his son. “You know why he’s formed an attachment to me? Cause I treat him like an adult and you still treat him like a boy.”
Michael- “He’s 10 years old!”
Locke says he’s been through more than most people in their entire lifetimes and Michael hasn’t spent enough time with him to see it, “He’s different.”
Michael (concerned)-"What did you say?" {Did Michael realize Locke is on to the wonders of Walt?! Maybe he realized at that moment Walt and Locke share something. Maybe Michael realized where he really is and what's going on. I think it's at that moment Michael realizes he has to make that raft; he's got get Walt off the island!}
Locke-“And we’re not back home, Michael. As long as we're here I think Walt should be allowed to realize his potential.”
Michael warns Locke to stay away from him and his son. {This scene was very important!}



{Note the huge painting is heads.}
“You’re not taking him.” Toddler Walt plays on the floor with Michael. {Does he have Legos?}

Michael tells Susan she can go if she wants too but she’s not taking his son. Susan wants to take Walt to Amsterdam. She's got a great job offer and is leaving with him. Michael thought her position with the legal clinic was a good fit. This is offer is a huge opportunity for her as she’s always wanted to do international law. Susan says that she loves Michael but they need time apart. Michael knows they’ve talked about a lot of things, “You said you wanted to live on a boat.”
Susan mentions they’ve been through so much in such a short time. Michael understands they’ve got problems; he down with going to counseling. Susan had already made up her mind and took it; after all he hasn’t worked in months. Michael had already told her construction slows in the winter. But Susan knows she is the one who can provide for Walt. Michael doesn’t want to be away from Walt; there are laws against this kind of thing. Susan already knows the courts would side with her.
The two are not married. Susan says it’s not goodbye forever; she just needs some time. Michael is getting emotional.
{Flash Whoosh}
Walt is sleeping. {With his hand on his head} Michael watches him. Sun asks Michael if he’s alright.
Michael-"I just don't know how to talk to him, how to get him to understand, I’m on his side.    Locke says I should stop treating him like a child. I missed his whole childhood, so…This can’t happen…He can’t grow up here….Can’t grown up in this place.” {He can’t talk to Walt but he can communicate with Sun- a woman who is supposed to be speaking Korean.}














“Once I realized these equations were coordinates latitude and longitude, I assumed the French woman was trying to determine the location of the island. But it was incomplete; her notations fragmented.”



Shannon- “Except for the fish song.” {Is the fish song not nonsense?!}
Jack- “The what?”
No one explains the fish song to Jack.
Sayid just continues on with, “But when I lay the pages down like this I realized it wasn’t showing the location of the island…I think it’s a location on the island, specifically here…”
Jack asks where they are in relation to the triangle. Sayid admits the map in not in scale so he doesn’t know.
Jack states they’re not even sure it’s a map of this Island. Sayid admits they’re not sure but thinks it this may be the transmitter sending out the distress call and its power source.
Michael wonders what they’re doing now. “Looking for an excuse to get chased down and killed by whatever lives in the jungle?”
Michael feels they can’t keep doing this; building water filtration systems and playing golf, making a sweet little home here. “We need to get off this Island.”
Shannon-“You think any of us want to be here?”
Michael says no and that no one wants to get off this island as badly as he does right now.
Michael suggests building a raft because “No one’s coming.” He feels they can use the seats from the fuselage, ax, a whole bunch of trees; bamboo.
Sayid thinks the chances of surviving the rough waters, the odds of finding a shipping lane and Shannon’s seasickness would make this a waste of time.   Michael sarcastically tells them to stay there, grow old together, “Good luck to ya. But I’m doing this. My son and I are leaving.”



 In the caves Walt is reading the Spanish version of the comic The Green Lantern and Flash- Faster Friends. Vincent is at his side.
Walt is sounding out the Spanish words. Michael wants Walt to help him with something but Walt wants to enjoy the comic. Michael remarks Walt is reading a comic book in Spanish but doesn’t speak Spanish. Walt likes the pictures. Michael is intrigued Walt likes the art. Michael shares with his son that when he was a little older than Walt he used to trace comic books. “Taught myself about perspective, you know what that is? Perspective?”
Walt doesn’t even acknowledge dad so dad grabs the comic from him. He needs Walt’s help and needs him to go with him; because he sees what happens when he doesn’t keep an eye on him.
{Flash Whoosh-Sounds like a train.}
Michael is talking to Susan on a pay phone in New York City. He wants to talk to 21 month old Walt. Susan comments Walt doesn’t use the phone.
Michael will do all the talking, “I just want him to hear my voice. I miss him.” {Two pay phones}
Michael hears Susan say to someone on the other end of the phone say “Shhhh. It’s Michael.”
Susan tells Michael it’s not a good time to talk but Michael is ultimately informed by Susan she’s been seeing Brian Porter; the guy who hired her.
Michael feels she lied when she said she needed time to think about “us”. She says it wasn’t like that. Michael is pissed off, “I’m coming to Amsterdam.”
Susan doesn't want him to because it’s over between them.
Michael yells-“I’m not coming for you! I’m coming for Walt! I’m getting my son back!” Michael slams the phone down, crosses the street and gets hit by a car.

Kate walks over to chat with Charlie on the beach. He is going through Claire’s things/bags, “Who brought them here?”
Kate- “I did.”
Charlie is looking for Claire’s diary. She kept a diary in the side pocket.
Charlie-“Someone’s taken it.”
“What are we looking for again?” asks Walt. Michael needs any long piece of metal or long tubing, anything that looks like it would work as a frame.
Walt- “A frame for what?"
Michael- “You’ll see soon enough.”
They look through the wreckage as Michael instructs Walt to separate the cushions, the plastic, the tarp, “Put everything you find in different piles so we can take stock.”
Walt-“Am I being punished?”
Michael feels, “This is us taking control of our destiny.”
Walt-“Feels like punishment.”


Kate and Charlie head over to Sawyer’s tent. He doesn’t answer the call at the tent door so Charlie says, “I can just go inside…”
Sawyer- “Trick or treat.”
Sawyer is sitting a few feet away.
When something goes missing they figure it’s got to be Sawyer who took it.
Kate asks if he has the diary or not. Just like a magician he presents a diary, “You mean this one?”
Charlie wants it. Sawyer doesn’t think that’s a good idea because maybe Missy Claire doesn’t want Charlie to read it.
Charlie-“I wasn’t gonna read it.”
Sawyer wonders if Charlie’s curious about what she wrote about him. Sawyer mentions “good literature is kinda scarce around here.”
They assume Sawyer read the diary.
Sawyer reads a passage aloud. “Dear Diary. I’m getting really freaked out by that has-been pop star. I think he’s stalking me.”
He reads on- “Diary, the little limy runt just won't let up.”
Charlie punches him in his bicep wound, knocking the diary away.
Charlie acquires the diary.
Sawyer punches Charlie in the face. Charlie feels he hits like a ponce. Kate stops them from really getting into it. Charlie walks away.
Kate asks Sawyer if he really read it. Sawyer just hadn’t gotten around to it yet.

Walt is “listening” to something. Distant voices become clearer.
Michael rummages through the wreckage. Walt gets excited when he sees Locke and Boone emerge from the jungle and head into the caves. Michael never even notices them. {Locke is eating something.} Walt tells his focused dad he’s going to get some water. Michael would like Walt to bring him some. Walt doesn't acknowledge him at all.
Michael-“Please and thank you. Gotta work on that.”
Dad is displeased with Walt’s lack of manners.

In the cave Shannon wonders if Boone and Locke are just going to keep coming back without any food.
Boone is disconnected from her. Shannon wants to know what’s going on with him, “Could you be acting any weirder?”
Boone- “Shannon. You’ve been a functioning bulimic since Jr. High. I thought you’d be excited about dropping a size or two.”
Shannon feels since Boone isn’t having any luck hunting maybe he should help Michael build the raft. She was thinking maybe she should help Michael so she can finally get the hell out of there. “Why don’t you help me?”
Unimpressed Boone replies, “No thanks.”
Locke is going through his silver case and Walt walks over to him.
Locke- “Your father doesn’t want us spending time together.”
Walt feels dad isn’t the boss of him. Locke tells the child, “But he’s your father. And he cares about you and you need to show him respect. Now I’m serious Walt. You’re not to come to me anymore.”
Just then Michael enters and he is pissed!
“Damn it! What is wrong with you?!”
Locke-“I was just coming to see…”
Michael told Locke to stay away from his son. Walt tries to interject but Michael doesn’t want to hear from him.



Locke- “I was just giving him this pencil to give to you. I thought you could use it. Consider it a peace offering.”
{Pen or pencil?}
Michael quietly speaks in Locke’s ear. “I catch you with my son again…I’ll kill you.”

Locke picks up his silver case and walks away.
Walt calls Michael "a jerk!"
“Mr. Locke didn’t do anything wrong, he’s my friend.”
Michael- “He’s not anymore. I’m looking out for you!”
Walt feels Michael doesn’t care about him and he never cared about him. “You only show up after my mom died. Where were you when I was growing up? Huh? NOWHERE!”
Michael-“Listen, Walt. It’s complicated.” {Remember that for later}
Walt doesn’t even care, “You’re not my father.” {That’s right.}
Michael- “You wanna hate me? You wanna punish me for something I can’t change? Fine. But you will listen to me.”
Michael throws the comic in the fire! He demands Walt “get over there. And you stay there. Now!”
Walt walks over by the waterfall and Vincent.
Michael looks at the burning comic book with the polar bear.
{Flash Whoosh}
Michael is drawing with a pencil.

He's been in a hospital for three months. His nurse never knew he had a kid. Michael explains he'll be two next week and lives in Amsterdam with his mom. Michael mentions he never knows what to write.
The nurse suggests a joke. “How about what's black, white and red all over?”
Michael guesses a newspaper.
Nope.
The nurse's answer is a penguin with a sunburn.
Nurse-"Trust me, mother of four talking here. He'll get a kick out it."
Susan comes to see him. She hadn't heard from Michael in two months, she had to call Andy to find out about the accident.
Michael- "Yeah, well considering how our last conversation went."
Susan tells him Walt is at home.
Susan pushes Michael in a wheelchair down the hallway. The nurses feel he will make a full recovery but Michael informs Susan he needs a year of physical therapy. Susan will cover all his medical expenses. She already spoke to the hospital administrator and all his bills will go to her.
Susan goes on to reveal she is going to marry Brian, he wants to adopt Walt and they will move to Italy at the end of the month. Brian is taking over the firm's Rome office.
Michael- "You're kidding me right?"
Susan- "Consider what's best for Walt. You can keep holding on if you want, but ask yourself why you're doing that. Is it really for him? Or is it for you?" {I find this line to be very telling! Are we NOT talking about a child here? Or are we talking about my Darth Vader action figure that I've been holding on to since I'm a kid? lol}
{Flash Whoosh}
Hurley walks up to Michael and says -"Uh, dude. You're kid is gone."
Walt just grabbed the dog and took off.
Michael knows where he's gone.

Locke is sharpening his knife.
Michael asks Locke where he is, "I'm not in the mood for your games, man. Where's Walt?"
Locke tells him Walt's not here but Michael thinks he's lying.
Boone-"Hey man. He's not here. Look around."
Well, Michael wasn't talking to Boone.
Locke- "I told him this morning that he couldn't be around me anymore. Trying to respect your wishes." They realize Walt is gone.
Locke tells Michael "Let's go find your boy."

Kate and Charlie arrive at the caves with Claire's bags. Charlie feels Kate didn't really have to help, "I could have managed. I've had my share of manly encounters."
Kate thought he could use the company.
Charlie tells Kate "It's weird. I barely knew her...barely know her, Claire. She's missing over a week. Everyday she's gone it feels like bits of me are crumbling or something.
Kate thinks its right he keep her stuff safe until she gets back. Kate touches Charlie's leg and leaves.
Charlie retrieves Claire's blue diary and contemplates a peek. He's so tempted that he picks it up and puts it down a few times before thumbing through the pages. He fights temptation and puts the diary back in the bag, zips it up and walks away from it.

Walt walks Vincent through the jungle. {On a red leash} Something "growls".
The dog barks and Walt looks around because they hear something walking through the jungle. Walt doesn't see anything just hears it. Vincent starts freaking as if he sees something and Walt asks him what's wrong. Vincent runs off, breaking the collar and leash off of him! {Why doesn't the damn dog stay? Did somebody/something call him away? I would think a good, loyal dog would protect its family} Walt drops the collar and leash to run after Vincent.
{Flash Whoosh}
Walt is lying on the floor staring at Vincent, although it could appear as if he's "listening" to him.
Susan is telling Brian about someone who is "trying to weasel his way out anything not to let the case move forward. He was arguing it wasn't his jurisdiction."
Brian- "Oh, you're kidding me."
Susan- “I wish I was. Same argument third time in a row. Barkley said it was an immigration issue."
Brain- "Barkley, that's classic."
Susan- "He thinks because I'm new to Australian law that I'm some kind of yokel or something"
Susan wants Walt to do get back to his homework. Walt told her he needs help. Mom the lawyer can tell when someone's stalling.
Susan and Brian are distracted in their own conversation and not paying attention to Walt. {There is a blue binder near Walt and he holds a pencil}
Walt asks "Who cares about birds of Australia, anyway? We're in Australia."
Brian asks Susan if she's okay. Susan admits she's feeling kind of flu-ey
Walt- "Shouldn't we be studying birds of Egypt or something?
Brian- "You haven't been sleeping much lately. Maybe you need to take a personal day."
Walt just continues talking about the bird he picked; the Bronze Cuckoo. It's funny. Wanna see?
Susan asks Brian what about Barkley?
Walt continues on- "I mean, it doesn't look funny, just the name"
Susan- "Sleeping in late that's too much. . ." {The nanny is sitting in the room.}
Walt is getting annoyed; tries to get Brian's attention-"Hey, Brian, look, look. You're not looking. You're not looking." {We hear bird chips and wings flutter.}
All of a sudden a bird flies in to the closed glass door. Walt wonders if it's dead. Brian says it is and just looks at Walt. Walt isn't really fazed by the bird incident; he just goes back to reading his bird book.
{Flash Whoosh}
Walt is alone in the jungle calling out for Vincent. We can hear noises of something moving around in the jungle. The sound of low growls is heard.

Brian Porter knocks on Michael's door. {Peephole} The men seem to not know each other. Brian breaks the news to him about Susan's death-YESTERDAY! {She dies yesterday, in Australia, he files all the way to N.Y. to see Michael and leaves Walt with the nanny...WOW!!}
Turns out Susan had a blood disorder and was sick for one week. Apparently Michael hadn't talked to her in a while. Brian informs him before Susan died she wanted Michael to have custody of Walt. Michael seems surprised at this and feels he hasn't been his father in nine years. Brian goes on about how he didn't want to be a father; he didn't know how. Brian presents a yellow envelope containing money for travel expenses, two tickets; 1 round trip, 1 one way, so Michael can go and get Walt. Michael feels the idea for Michael to have custody is really Brian's idea and not Susan's.
Brian's a wreck right now, he just lost the woman he loves and he can't be Walt's father, he's not his son.
Brian tells him there's something about him. Sometimes when he's around things happen; he's different somehow.
{Flash Whoosh}
Michael finds Vincent's red collar and leash. He and Locke hear Walt yell for help. Locke points Michael in the direction to go.

Michael goes to Australia. The nanny mentions Walt will be home from school any minute. She also gives him a yellow envelope with some of Susan's effects and a box with cards/letters. The nanny thinks Walt should have it. She just walks away leaving him alone.











In the distance you can hear the nanny tell Walt someone is there to see him. Michael walks down a long hallway to Walt.


















 Michael is running through the jungle, Walt is calling out for his dad's help and there are loud growls.
A polar bear is trying to claw his way into where Walt is hiding in the banyan trees. {This is the second time we see a polar bear.}
Locke stops Michael from just rushing over {actually covers his mouth, tells him to "shhhh" and directs them... "up here."

Walt plays with Vincent and a ball. {Wearing a vest.} The birds are singing.
Michael- "Hey Walt."
Walt- "Who are you?"
Michael tells Walt he's his father. {I know!! Walt looks at him like he has three fucking heads!} Michael shares that he and Susan loved it each very much when they had him. Walt asks where Brian is.
Michael- "He's not here."
Michael's there to bring you home with me."
Walt isn't going anywhere with him.
Michael- "I know this is really hard to understand all of this. See Brian... Brian loves you very much. And he wants you to stay with him, but it's not his choice. It's mine. I'm your legal guardian. And a, it's not like he's going to disappear from your life. He'll still call you, write to you, come to see you whenever he can. And you know, you'll still have your dog.
Walt- "But Vincent isn't mine. He's Brian's."
Michael- "Brian said you could have him."

The polar bear is trying to get to Walt. Michael calls out to Walt as he and Locke walk across a tree limb {like a tight rope walker} that allows them to pass over the polar bear action. Michael slips but Locke saves him!
Walt is crying as the bear continues to reach Walt. Michael tells Walt to hang in there. Michael climbs over to the tree with Walt. {What is with the white smoke there for a second?} Locke tosses Michael a knife to give to Walt for protection.
Walt stabs at the bear.
Michael wraps leafless vines around and yells up to Locke, "Okay, Locke now!"
Locke works hard to pull Walt out. The polar bear returns and Michael stabs him; the bear runs off. {Locke watches the bear run off.} Michael climbs up the tree and is reunited with Walt. They hug; everybody is happy! Michael is glad Walt is safe.
Walt is concerned that Vincent ran off again.
Locke- "He found his way back to you once, Walt. He will again." {Indeed}
Michael and Locke share a smile.




At night in the caves Michael gives Walt a present; every card and letter of the past eight years! {NOT 9 years}
Walt said he likes to look at pictures. Walt's never seen these before and wonders why his mom never gave them to him.
Michael feels although she didn't give them to him, she never threw them out either and that deep down she must have wanted him to have them. They both feel the "penguin" joke is dumb.

Charlie sits engrossed in Claire's blue diary. Something on the page gets his attention and he heads over to talk to Jack and Sayid. "You have to hear this." They're surprised he's reading her diary.
Charlie- "Yeah, I know, I'm bloody scum. Just listen to this. "I had that weird dream again the one with the black rock I can't get away from. I try to leave it but it won't let me."
Sayid -"Black rock?"
Jack-"It's just dreams, Charlie."
Charlie- "No, Sayid mentioned black rock before."
Sayid- "The French woman said something about her team returning from the black rock. The triangle on the map. Maybe it's the triangle on the map."
Charlie- "Maybe it's where Claire was taken. Maybe she's there?"
Jack-"Maybe. Charlie, we all want to find Claire, but there's no sense going out into the jungle in the middle of the night."






Locke is blowing into the whistle he made to 'call' Vincent. {We hear the high pitch whistle.}
Boone- "I don't think that whistles working, John."
Locke- "You can't hear everything, Boone. The sooner you learn that, the better."
There's a noise that Boone actually hears.
Boone whispers loudly, "Vincent. Vincent. Is that you?"
Locke readies his knife as they wait to see what's coming out of the jungle.
I guess the whistle it works on Claire too because she walks out of the jungle! {Damn Locke is good! Keep your eye on Locke.}
Locke- "Claire."






Special is a GREAT episode!! Just what is the tie or connection with Walt and Michael? What is his role? Is he really his father, biologically or as a figurehead? In name only? WHAT?! I feel that Michael may be more of a protector/guardian than a father.   Walt wasn't supposed to be Michael's and wasn't supposed to be with Michael.
So Walt is different. What does he share with Locke really?
Bottom line is Michael's got to get Walt off the “Island” before the shit hits the fan! I think Michael knows all about Walt and the "Island"! There, I said it!

Things to Note...Questions to ask...
* Eyes
* Michael and Jack wear plaid shirts.
* Bar. {Jack and Christian}
* Black. White. Red.
* What is the deal with dog/dogs? Vincent.
* Understand. Teach. Learn. Language. Linguistics. Communicate. Talk.
* Picture. Art. Drawing. Frame. Pencil/pen.
* Read. Write. Wrote.
* Diary is a journal.
* Attachments.  Literal, computer or metaphor?
* Pictures in your head. Hmmm.
* “Lifetimes.” Plural! Who has more than one lifetime? Hmm.
* Claire and a connection with the Black Rock. Maybe they all have a connection with it.
* Feelings of being punished.
* Game. Puzzle. Trick. Joke. Kid/kidding
* Therapy.
* Anagram for TARP is TRAP.
* Bags=baggage. It seems like they it's a metaphor for emotional baggage. They seem to find their own bags.
* Susan hadn't heard from Michael in two months, Walt was 21 months the night of the accident and he will be two next week.
* Brian Porter and Susan are a black and white couple. Vincent's leash is red.
* The bird that flew into the glass door doesn't really look like any of the birds in the book.
* Again be observant to when the "Flash Whoosh" is there and when it's not.

* I've been excited to talk about this, yet also afraid to talk about this. Reason being you all know I think outside the box with this show and I could be way out there on some things( I know that), but this could make me look like a fully fledged patient at Santa Rosa's! LOL!
The comic is in Spanish.
Let's talk about the basic idea/story of the comic. I have kept these clues as part of my thoughts since the first time I saw them.
I see many common elements between this comic book story and the "Island". MANY! Some of which I know you're going to say I'm nuts! But I see more than just the polar bear bearing a resemblance to our island.
We are shown an alien, the dome around land, bug, polar bear. Okay, that comic story/series is about two halves of a super hero (Flash and Green Lantern) put together to make a superior super hero. The old and new of both halves create the new being, a better world.; Two halves brought together to make a whole.

I'm paraphrasing here, but this is the idea: A reference to parallel earth, they want to mix a part of each reality to create a perfect world, and identity crisis.
The alien: The alien in the story comes to earth, and gets sick with cancer; they hide him away in a ship.
The dome: Could our island be in a "dome" or something "dome-like"? Something that is "containing" them?
Bug: Walt shows us the page with the bug on it. So does the "Island" have a bug?
Polar bear: Many have felt that the polar bear was manifested by Walt. Nope, I don't think so.
Besides that the "polar bears" were already there in that "environment".


Vocabulary and Research…
* Air Chief Marshal Sir Walter Lloyd Dawson KCB CBE DSO RAF (6 May 1902 – 1994) was a senior commander in the RAF in the 1950s. He was the last RAF commander in Palestine, before the creation of the State of Israel. He died in 1994.
* Crib- in cryptanalysis, is a known or suspected plaintext. The term originated at Bletchley Park, the British WWII decryption operation.
* The usage "crib" was adapted from a slang term referring to cheating— example: "I cribbed my answer from your test paper."
-A "crib" originally was a literal or interlinear translation of a foreign-language text — usually a Latin or Greek text — that students might be assigned to translate from the original language.
* Triangle- Trinity.
* In semantics: a triangle is the structure of every system composed with three reciprocally connected/interrelated abstract or real objects
*The phrase "mind's eye" refers to the human ability for visual perception, imagination, visualization, and memory.
*The Mind's I: Fantasies and reflections on self and soul is a 1981 book composed and arranged by Douglas R. Hofstadter and Daniel C. Dennett. It is a collection of essays and creations about the nature of the mind and the self, tied together with commentary by the editors.
-The Mind's Eye series consists of several art films rendered using computer generated imagery of varying levels of sophistication. The series began in 1990.
* New Amsterdam- was a 17th-century Dutch Colonial settlement that later became the city now known as New York City. Whenever the Dutch went to new places they would name each colony with the word "new".
* Stalling (gaming) obstruction of the flow of play while leading in a timed game.





You've heard me say many times before that we are given a clue and then it gets dropped for a while…then BAM! There it is again! This is not the last time we got a comic or super hero clue. Just wait, it comes back around.

Every single episode tells us to LOOK, SEE and LISTEN because answers are right in front of our eyes! I guess that's going to become my catch phrase. Also, answers are in their eyes.  So think about what could actually be going on in their “heads/minds”.

The comic book.....Is it a clue or just entertainment? I think it's a clue and for fun!  It’s Michael who stares at the burning comic book with the polar bear page showing.
I sometimes feel that there's a bit of "Mr. John Locke" in most of the centrics even when they're not "his". Weird, huh?

Perspective…it’s all about perspective.

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Disclaimer: I never claim to know everything about the show and my thoughts by no means make me right. The things I share here are my views and/or opinions. I don't claim to catch every single detail either. You all know I hate spoilers, and I stand clear of reading certain sites as to not take me off my own course of research. The one thing I don't need to do here is rehash all of the obvious clues from an episode, we all know what they are. Understood? Good. Let the fun begin!I'll only note things that I know come up as clues later, but need to be noted when they first show up and things I find that will be of importance. It will get very exciting as we progress into the story.