Born to Run

Let's talk about LOST! Born to Run.

{NO: PREVIOUSLY ON LOST}
A shot of a corn field area.


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A convertible car, driven by a blond/light woman, pulls into a motel parking lot. {Backpack in back seat.}
The woman reveals her stash of different state license plates that are hidden under the false floor of the trunk. She changes the Nebraska plate to an Ohio plate on her car.

As a family checks out of their no smoking room, 121, leaving the door open of course, the blond commandeers the room; but not before stealing towels and shampoo. {Note: The family leaves in a red van and the maid walks by the vacated room to open the door to another room. Also note when Kate enters the room she turns the door hanging sign from one side to the opposite side.} She changes her hair color to brown/dark.
This is “Kate”.














Kate interrupts the motel counter clerk from {looks like he’s playing a video game, I think}.



She’s expecting a letter, “Hold for guest arrival.”
Her alias is Joan Hart.  {Heart}
His filing system is in a very interesting shoe box. He gives her the letter.





 She sits in the car {Top closed} reads the letter and cries.
{Cash}
 We get a shot panning up toward the clouds…

{Flash Whoosh}
…A toy plane.
Kate is flying the toy plane in her hands {even tilts it nose down.}.
Charlie-“Platinum!”
He blurts that out as he walks up to Kate strumming his guitar.
Charlie-“As in platinum record. As in a million units sold. Now, Drive Shaft's albums must have spiked when everybody found out that I died in some catastrophic plane disaster. When I come back, alive, it's going to be insane.”
He is SO happy! Kate asks if he thinks the raft will work.
Charlie-“Yeah, of course it will work. Look at that thing. It's not a raft. They built a sodding boat. And when they get picked up… the helicopters will come… making us ridiculously and eternally famous. What's the matter, don't you want to be famous?”
Kate looks over to see commotion by the raft and asks Charlie what he thinks is going on over there.

Arzt- “Sure, you can absolutely wait a few weeks before you launch. I was just assuming you didn't want to die.”


Michael- “So, when is the next time we can launch?”
Arzt tells him maybe four months.
Sawyer- “C’mon, even a weather man on TV don't know what's going to happen. Why are we listening to Arzt?”
Arzt reveals proudly it's because he’s a doctor and Sawyer’s a hillbilly.

Sawyer corrects him, “You're a damn high school science teacher.”
Jack wants to hear what Arzt has to say.
Arzt educates while Jin pulls on a wire. ”It's been raining every afternoon. That means that we are on the cusp on monsoon season. Monsoon season is bad. Now, the trade winds are blowing north right now… shipping lanes are north… so north is exactly where you want to be.”
He continues, “It means that when monsoon season hits the trade winds are going to shift to the south. The raft goes with the wind. Can anyone tell me what is the only piece of land that is south of us?”
The good student Jack {with key around his neck} answers- “Antarctica.”
Arzt-“That's right, Jack. Antarctica.”
Michael- “So, when do we have to leave?”
Arzt tells him, “Yesterday.”
Kate looks concerned.

Kate catches up to Michael and asks, “So obviously you believe him?”
Michael doesn’t know, but isn’t taking any chances. Kate inquires about his preparedness.
Michael-“Kate, no offense, but I've got work to do. Why the sudden interest?”
Kate-“Because I'm going with you.”
Michael tells her the raft’s full, “We need four, we got four.”
This includes Sawyer; they needed the stuff he had so he bought his way on. Kate feels that should only count for the first raft that burned. Michael isn’t going to get into semantics with her…
Kate informs him Sawyer doesn’t even know how to sail but she does. She spent two summers crewing J boats. Michael doesn’t budge and feels a deals a deal. So Kate plays the “Walt” card claiming him going-“It’s dangerous”.
Pissed off Michael decides what’s best for his boy, “And right now what’s best for him is to get the hell off this island. The raft’s full.”
{Flash Whoosh}
Kate walks down the hallway of a hospital with a beautiful bouquet of flowers. There is an announcement for the Hospital chaplain to report the Neuro ICU. This scene is bathed in purple.
Kate tells the nurse behind the glass, “I have a delivery for Diane Jansen.”
Nurse-“Right, she just came up from ICU. She's in room two zero eight. It's around the corner to your right.”
Kate sees an officer sitting, reading a newspaper guarding a room. She uses the flowers to hide her face as she walks by him.

A doctor gets in to his car on parking level 3.
Kate shocks him as she’s been hiding in his back seat.
Tom- “Oh, Katie. What are you doing here?”
Kate shares Diane’s dying of cancer and she owed it to her to go and see her. Tom heard about Diane’s situation. Kate is hiding in the back of his car because she needs his help.
{Flash Whoosh}
Jin is busy working with a wire for the raft’s sail. Sun communicates with one cuff Jin in Korean.
Sun-“Are you going? Please Jin, talk to me.”
Jin says yes and Sun walks away.

Jack asks “How much further?”
Jack and Sayid are walking in the jungle. Sayid tells him they’re almost there. Sayid hadn’t told Jack where they’re going because he feels it's better for Jack to see it for himself but Jack isn’t so sure it is. If Sayid doesn’t tell him why he brought him out there he’s going to turn around.
Locke appears! “He brought you out here because I asked him to. I asked him not to tell you. I wanted you to have an open mind.”
Jack wonders, “Open mind about what?”
Locke motions for Jack to follow him.
Locke shows him…the hatch.
Jack- “My god, what is this thing?”
Locke-“Exactly. I guess it's time we talked about this.”

Michael is dragging a large piece of metal past Sawyer.
Sawyer is drinking water and calls to him. ”Yo, chief. Dumb question here…we're sailing out in the ocean, right?”
Michael-“Do you mind?”
Sawyer wonders why Sulu is packing a suitcase full of salted fish when they should be about to catch fish.
Michael asks him if he knows anything about surviving at sea, I.e., sailing, navigating, steering a raft.
Sawyer-“Do you?”
Michael feels it doesn't matter what he knows, “I built it. Maybe you are the wrong guy to go on the raft.”
Sawyer-“You're going to vote me off, Mickey? And who the hell's going to take my place?”

Kate is burning a passport.
Pissed off Sawyer asks Kate what the hell does she think she’s doing.
Sawyer- "Don't give me the aw-golly eyes. Michael just told me you were jockeying for my spot on the raft.”
Cocky Kate says she was just asking some questions and Michael must have misunderstood her.
Sawyer grabs her by the arm because he is on to her and knows what she’s doing. “Yeah, just like I know why you wanted that Halliburton case so bad, the one that belonged to that U.S. Marshal who was flying with us. You were his prisoner.”
Kate-“Let go of me.”
Sawyer-“The only chance of running is getting on that raft, ain't it? We get picked up by a ship and they come back to rescue the rest of you all…there's going to be a nice big asterisk next to your name. Don't worry puddin', your secrets' safe with me. But just so you know… no way in hell you're getting my spot on that raft.”
Kate- “Hey Sawyer. I want your spot; I'll get your spot.” She swaggers away.

Michael and Jin work on the raft. Michael wants Walt to give him the water.
Walt asks him what he and Sawyer were arguing about. {Watch Michael's body language and listen to his words, carefully.}
Michael-“I told him something he didn't want to hear.”
He tells Walt Sawyer wants on the raft badly because he knows it's going to work.
Walt-“When we get rescued we're going to come back for everybody else, right?”
Michael- “Yeah, sure, of course. The thing is…this island, uh, is, uh… finding it again might be hard.”
Walt-“Can't we fly around and look for it?”
Michael-“Absolutely, but there's no guarantees. That's why you and me...”
Michael feels sick, wobbles, fluffs it off and then doubles over in pain. He tells Walt to get Jack. {Jin, who is near them, doesn’t immediately jump down to help.}
Walt runs through the jungle and comes upon Kate and Sun. He tells the girls he needs help with his dad; his stomach is really bad. Kate will get Jack and Sun will take Walt back to Michael. Sun puts her water bottle down on the ground {in the middle of the friggin jungle} and runs off with Walt.

Kate runs through the jungle calling out for Jack; looking for him.

At the hatch Jack asks Locke how long has he known about this.  Locke, who is playing with a stick, reveals three weeks, give or take. {Jack is on the hatch and Locke and Sayid are on the ground outside of the dug up hatch.}
Jack- “Three weeks. You've been out here for three weeks digging this thing up and you never told me about it?” {He kind of knew about a hatch from Boone.}
Locke-“All due respect, Jack, but since when do I report to you?”
Jack-“All due respect, John, but you lied.”
Locke asks Jack how long did he have that case full of guns before he decided the rest of them needed to know, “You used your best discretion. I used mine.”
Jack wonders how they open it.
Sayid is shocked, “What? You want to open it?”
He feels they should bury it, “I brought you here to talk him out of this insanity. Anything could be inside.”
Jack-“Best case scenario there's supplies. Worse case, we use it as a shelter.”
Sayid-“Actually, Jack, I can think of much worse cases than that. You notice anything about this hatch? There's no handle. Could the reason for that be more obvious? Maybe it was never meant to be opened from the outside.”
Locke, Jack and Sayid walk back to camp; hear Kate calling for to Jack. Kate tells Jack it’s Michael; somethings' wrong.
Jack asks Michael, who has great stomach pain, what he had to eat and drink today. Michael had fruit, fish and 2-3 bottles of water. The water comes from the caves just like everybody else’s. Michael insists they have to launch that raft tomorrow. Jack knows that, but he needs Michael to take stay in the shade, take it easy and don’t move around too much. Jack has him lay back. Jack and Locke walk away and Kate tends to Michael telling him to lay down. Walt looks concerned.
{Flash Whoosh}
Kate is at Tom's house looking at pictures of his family on the refrigerator.



Tom is on the phone-“Hello? Hey, Adam. Hey, listen can you carve out some time for me on the MRI? Yeah, it's a favor for a friend of a friend. Um no, that would work out great, okay. Yeah. Thanks, Adam. {Hangs up and notes Kate looking longingly at the pics and tells her} His name's Conner.”
Conner is 22 months old next week. {Note pic of Tom has red eyes.}
Kate comments on the blond boy's beauty; Tom feels “It’s Rachel, it’s not me.”
Tom reveals she’s over in Cedar Rapids visiting her folks; they get back on Sunday. "I got Diane in for an MRI. Now, they'll bring her downstairs to radiology. The appointments not til 5am, so, we've got about three hours to kill.”
Kate- “Tom.”
Tom-“You're welcome.” {Was she going to say thank you?}
Kate-“You think it's still there?”
Tom- ”What?”
Kate-“You know what.”
Tom-“It's the middle of the night, Katie.”
Kate-“We might not get another chance."
They drive to a big tree with some cattle/steer grazing. Kate counts off six paces and they dig.
{Flash Whoosh}
“What do you think it is? Heat stroke?” asks Locke.
Jack doesn’t think so as Michael would have felt that coming on. It couldn’t be bad fruit or raw fish because Jin’s not sick and they’re on the same diet. Jack feels what was making him sick was metabolized fast; it hit him quick and it hit him hard. He looks through the cooler of empty bottles and comes up with one that proves something was put into the bottle of water.
Jin is working on the raft with a few of the camp residents.
Michael {white towel on his head} tells Jack the cramps are quieting down; as long as he doesn’t move or breathe. They notice Hurley and Locke chatting.
Michael asks-“You and Locke kiss and make up? {Jack shakes his head, no.} Good.”
Michael needs some water so Jack gives him one he knows isn’t tainted.
Michael-“Somebody did this to me?”
Jack doesn’t know; he’s not sure of anything yet. Walt sits nearby them watching and listening.
Michael states,“Sawyer.”

Hurley and Locke chat.
Hurley-“I'm on bamboo duty, but yeah sometimes I help refill the water.”
Locke inquires if Michael and Jin are getting along. Hurley says they fight like a married couple building a raft together.   Jack walks over and shares with Locke that Michael thinks Sawyer might have done it.
Hurley interjects, “Oh, because of Kate?”
Jack-“Kate?”
Hurley-“Yeah, I guess she wants on the raft. So Sawyer went off on Michael because, you know he gets to decide who goes. Hey, you don't think Kate did it do you?”
Locke wonders why Kate would poison Michael.
Hurley-“Well, you know… the whole… fugitive thing.”
Jack gives Hurley a “Ya opened your big mouth look”.
Hurley-“He doesn't know. Well how am I supposed to keep straight who knows what around here? I mean Steve didn't even know about the polar bear!”
Locke asks what she did. Jack doesn’t know but suggests Locke ask her.
Locke-“And you didn't think the others should know about this, Jack?”
Jack-“Discretion, John.”

Aaron sleeps in his crib. Charlie plays and bops to the tune he’s playing on guitar, as Claire simultaneously trims his hair. Claire needs him to stop moving or she’ll cut his ear off. Charlie is very happy that he is writing again, “I'm really feeling it as well. So, what's the first thing you're going to do when we get rescued?"
Claire doesn’t know. Charlie tells her she can hang out with him in L.A.. “You and turnip head. You know, until you figure things out.”
She thanks him.
Happy Charlie finds that smashing. “Okay, check this out. This is track two. It's called... Claire forces him to keep his head straight-eyes forward while she cuts} Sorry. It's called ‘Monster Eats the Pilot’.”

Jack is in the caves looking through the Oceanic-medical cart and Kate comes in asking how Michael is doing. Jack says he’s fine. Kate wonders if somebody is going to take his place on the raft, “because Dr. Arzt said if they leave tomorrow…”
Jack cuts her off and outright asks her if she poisoned Michael. Kate is shocked and insulted he’d think that!
Jack-“He's not sick, someone did this.”
Kate-“Do you really think I'm capable of that?”
Jack-“I don't know what you're capable of.”
Kate turns and walks away. {Watch her face.}
{Flash Whoosh}
Kate digs while Tom gets a beer from the car.
Kate-“You brought beer?”
Of course he did as he’s a self respecting Iowa man. Kate chugs some. Tom feels it’s not fair; her coming back here, home. Kate knows.
Kate digs and hit something metal-ish. She retrieves an old rusty New Kids on the Block lunch box. In the box is a red Westhills ball cap, the toy plane, a cassette tape.


Tom- “Oh my god. My plane. I can't believe I let you talk me into putting this in there.
Kate indicates no it wasn’t, “That was your idea.” She picks up the tape, “Kate and Tom, 1989.


They listen to the tape in the car. We hear the voices of sweet younger versions of themselves dreaming of their future.

Tom-”Is it on? I don't think it's on.”
Kate- “It’s on.”
Tom- “Okay, uh, this is Kate Austen and Tom Brennan and this is um, our dedication for our time capsule, here on August 15th, 1989. Hey, give me that back.”
Kate- “Why are you putting this stupid plane in there?”
Tom- “Because it's cool, Katie. I got it when I flew to Dallas by myself.”
Kate- “Ooh, that is cool, just like this time capsule.”
Tom- “It'll be totally cool when we dig it up in like… 20 years.”
Kate- “How do you know we'll be together?”
Tom- “Because we'll be married and you'll be a mom and we'll have nine kids.”
Kate- “I don't think so. As soon as I get my license we should just get in a car and drive. You know, run away.”
Tom-“You always want to run away, Katie.”
Kate- “Yeah…and you know why.”
The tape stops
Tom- “Funny how things turn out, huh?"
Kate-“Yeah.”
Teary eyed Kate kisses Tom; Kate is sorry.
Tom just suggests they get to the hospital. They drive off.
{Flash Whoosh}
Locke is sitting by a campfire mixing up some gunk paste in a coconut shell with his big knife. Walt walks over warily to him. He sees Locke has an injured leg and asks if it hurts. Locke admits it does; he had a little accident. Locke asks Walt if there’s something he want to tell him.
Walt-“I didn't do it.”
Lock-“Didn't do what?”
Walt- “I heard Jack. He thinks somebody got my dad sick. And I didn't do it.”
Locke- “You think because I know you burned the first raft that I'd think you made your dad sick? {He nods.} We're friends, Walt. I didn't tell on you before and I'm not going to tell on you now. {Locke touches Walt’s wrist.} And I know you would never do anything to hurt your dad.
Walt looks down at Locke's hand and quickly pulls his arm away as if he's afraid.
Locke-“What's the matter?"
Walt-“Don't open it.”
Locke-“What'd you say?”
Walt-“Don't open it, Mr. Locke. Don't open that thing.”
Locke- “What? What thing?”
Walt-“Just don't open it!”

Sawyer tosses a bottle of pink Stomach Relief medicine at Michael. He thought he might need it, “Wouldn't want our pilot out of commission before take-off.”
Michael wonders if Sawyer’s feeling guilty and informs him he’s off the raft. Sawyer’s pissed because they had a deal.
Michael-“Yeah, well, the deal ended the minute you decided to poison me.”
Sawyer- “What now?”
Michael waves him off, “I'm done with you.”
Sawyer-“You ain't done with me by a damn sight. You said you needed four!”
Michael- “I've got four! You've been stealing stuff off of dead bodies, keeping it for yourself, using it to buy favors. You're a liar and a criminal, and I'm not letting you near my boy."
Sawyer is shocked and pissed off! “Oh, I'm a criminal, huh? I poisoned you because I'm a criminal."
Jin pushes Sawyer away.
Sawyer tells Jin, “Get your hands off me, boy.”
Then he walks over to Kate and says, “Hey, sweet-cheeks, I had no idea how bad you wanted off this rock. Time to set things straight.”
He grabs Kate by the wrist and pulls her over to Michael. Kate demands he let go of her but he is going to reveal the identity of the real criminal to them. As everyone is chiming in for Sawyer to leave her alone, he opens her backpack and dumps her stuff out and presents the passport Kate was altering.


Sawyer- “You all remember Joanna, don't you? Huh? The woman who drowned? Now what's Kate doing with poor Joanna's ID? Could it be she'd do just about anything to get on that raft? So she could get herself rescued, run off with a new identity before half the reporters in the world descend on this damn island? She might even poison the captain himself.”
Kate yells for him to shut up.
Sawyer-“She don't care about nothin' or nobody but herself.”
{Flash Whoosh}
Tom and a hospital worker wheel Diane down the hallway. Tom dismisses his helper and motions to Kate she can come out now. Tom will wait in his office while she visits with her mom. Diane looks terrible and her eyes are closed.
Kate-“Hi, mom. Can you hear me? Mom?”
Diane slowly opens her eyes. Kate cries and tenderly touches her mother's hand, “It's me, Katie.”
Diane-“Katherine?”
Kate- “It's me, Katherine. I'm so sorry for everything I have put you through."
Diane starts to cry and very weakly calls out for “Help”.
Kate tries to tell her it's okay but Diane is hell bent on summoning help. A hospital worker sees Kate and she runs away; she runs right into a security guard who asks her what’s going on.
Kate shares that she’s her daughter, “She's just confused. I was going to get a doctor.”
The security guard grabs hold of Kate and radios that they have a situation. Kate grabs his walki talki and hits him.
Tom shows up, Kate needs his car keys. She takes off running and Tom runs after her.

They burst through the red door leading them to parking level 3.
Kate drives Tom in his car. {Plate-394-GC2} A police car blocks her escape! Kate tells Tom to get out! But Tom is not letting her do this, if she cooperates they’ll go easy and she can have a real life. Kate sees the cop calling for backup and demands he get out because she’s got to go, but he won’t go. Kate drives through the blockade and the cop fires three shots at the car hitting Tom. Kate takes off and crashes into another car. {Plate 614-GJ5}
Kate-“Tom? Tom! Oh god, Tom. No, no, no, Tom. Please wake up.”'




She sees that other cop cars are coming, notes the items on the backseat and takes off running.

"You wanna tell us why you need to run so bad." wonders Sawyer {Flash Whoosh}
"You wanna tell us the truth?"
After a few moments of hesitation, Kate admits she was on the plane with the Marshal and yes she was wanted, caught and was being transported back. "No matter what I say about what happened, about what I supposedly did...I'm going to jail. But I didn't poison you"
When she wants to step closer to Michael, he backs away from her. He also hands the passport back to Sawyer. Everyone seems a bit disgusted and walks away.

Jin and others working on the raft while Sun looks on. Jack walks over and mentions that he/Jin looks determined. Sun agrees and also admits that she doesn't want Jin to go. Jack asks if that's the reason she tried to make him sick, "Is that why you tried to make him sick? Michael and Jin working together all the time... pretty easy for them to get their water bottles mixed up."
Sun cries-"I didn't want him to die out there. I just didn't know what to do. I only used enough to make him...I wasn't trying to hurt him. Are you going to tell the others?"
Jack-"I don't see any reason why they need to know. But Sun, he's going. If I were you, I'd...I'd say goodbye."

Kate stands alone poking at a campfire with a stick. Sawyer informs her he's back on the raft, "Michael's gonna cowboy up, set sail tomorrow." She asks if he's there to say he's sorry.
Sawyer-"Nah, sorry don't suit me. You cornered me, Freckles. I did what I had to."
Kate-"I cornered you?"
Sawyer-"You said if you wanted my spot you were going to take it. I guess I believed you. Well, that's that. I've got some packing to do."
Kate asks why it's so important for him to be on that raft. Sawyer feels it's because there ain't anything on this island worth staying for. Kate tells him to be safe.
Sawyer-"Yeah."

Michael tells Walt he's feeling better, "I'm going to be alright. Hey, don't worry. I'm going to be on my feet soon. We'll be sailing home before you can even..."
Walt blurts out he's the one who burned the raft because he didn't want to leave and thought he could stop Michael. He is really sorry. Michael says it's okay, they can stay there and they don't have to leave.
Walt-"Yes we do." {Why?!}

Kate sits alone sulking and Sun walks over. Sun tells her Jack knows but she didn't tell that it was Kate's idea. After all, why should Kate be punished when she was only trying to help Sun. Jack said he wouldn't tell the others.
Kate-"Yeah, Jack's good at keeping secrets."
Sun-"When I was a little girl I believed that once I found the man I loved I would be happy... forever."
Kate-" Yeah, me too."




Born to run is a great episode!
Here's another episode of Kate on the run.   Is that Kate's role, her only role on the "Island"? She obviously has become a product of her circumstances too.   Her "one crime" has led to how many other crimes? Having this woman be eternally on the run is a cycle of sorts, wouldn't you say? {Wink, wink} How can that cycle be broken? Interesting that Sawyer knows exactly what Kate is capable of.

We discover Sun is the one who poisoned the water in hopes that Jin would drink it and have to stay with her. That's so romantic! But Kate is the mastermind behind the idea and the concoction! We also learn that Jack is very good at keeping secrets. Yes, even the perfect doctor is good at that!

Michael has been in hyper mode to get off the "Island" and I still find important. I know, now the monsoons are coming, which must have been bullshit because the weather didn't really change on or around the "Island".   Maybe Arzt isn't such a good teacher, but maybe he's a better motivator. But I do love Arzt! Obviously Michael and Walt know a few "little" things about the "Island".

Things to Note...Questions to ask...
* IMAGINING. Imagining what?!
* I.D. Identity. 
* Kate's plate on her car was changed from Nebraska to OHIO and we're led to believe her "flash" takes place in Iowa. Are we seeing just your run of the mill plate change or is it more important?
* MRI. Hospital.
* Charlie- “When I come back alive.”
* Neuro. Head.&
* Teach. Learn
* Hide.
* Wire.
* Roles. Prisoner. Marshal. Teacher. Doctor.
* Fly around.
* Right
* Wrong.
* Light and Dark.
* Michael knows. Here's the thing, I feel that the Lostie's know they've been “there” before; they just don't really remember. But Michael may remember more than he lets on, hence his hurried behavior to get off the island. I know, it sounds out there, but hey, this thought is brought to you by Karen. LOL! Or is all that about Michael and his "role"?
* Memory Box. Time Capsule.
* S.O.B. Walt does know! Is Walt speaking of the hatch or something else that shouldn't be opened? Hmmm…or maybe it's something else altogether. Maybe it's just me but when Walt says they have to leave, it feels like things are supposed to happen or take a specific route, so to speak.
* How many criminals are on this island?

Vocabulary and Research…
* Convertible-Adaptable-Changeable-Translatable-Exchangeable.
* J boat- The International J is the world's most popular one-design keelboat. The boat is manufactured in Portsmouth, Rhode Island.
* Magnetic Resonance Imaging (MRI), is primarily a medical imaging technique most commonly used in radiology to visualize the internal structure and function of the body.




We still have the "Island" of secrets. The "Island" itself is a secret, what goes on on the "Island" is a secret, everyone on the "Island" are secret keepers! How will we ever know who is telling the truth?

What is Kate’s role in all that we see? Is she at the heart of it all? I don’t know, but sometimes I feel like they’re playing "Grownup make believe", like a grown up live role playing game.

I'm very excited about the next episode; there is much to talk about there! And of course season 2 is filled with so many things. Season one is a great foundation for this story, but the meat of it is yet to come!

Love to all who are "LOST"™



Posted on MySpace July 12, 2007

Disclaimer: I never claim to know everything about the show and my thoughts by no means make me right. The things I share here are my views and/or opinions. I don't claim to catch every single detail either. You all know I hate spoilers, and I stand clear of reading certain sites as to not take me off my own course of research. The one thing I don't need to do here is rehash all of the obvious clues from an episode, we all know what they are. Understood? Good. Let the fun begin!I'll only note things that I know come up as clues later, but need to be noted when they first show up and things I find that will be of importance. It will get very exciting as we progress.

Abandoned.

Let’s talk about LOST! Abandoned.
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Night on the beach:
Shannon pours thirsty Vincent some water into an orange lunch box.  She tells the dog to drink and kisses him on the head.
Sayid tells Shannon to gather her things; he’s leading her somewhere.
Shannon- “Where are we going?”
He just smiles.
Sayid presents a tent-love nest he built for her.
Shannon is pleased and asks, “Does it have an inside?”
Inside Sayid has decorated it with lit candles, fruits and flowers.  She asks "when" he did this.
He only says, “It’s all yours.”  Shannon thanks him sincerely. They passionately kiss. {Yep. That’s what they do.}

Shannon touches the gun Sayid has tucked in the back of his pants and wonders if he needs to carry that all the time.
Sayid shares, “I only carry it because I have someone to protect.”{He needs to protect Shannon?Or someone else?}They get busy.


Night in the jungle:
The Tailies are hanging out in the trees; some are sleeping.
Cindy, who seems to be looking out for something, mentions to Ana that it's been over an hour, “Shouldn’t we start moving again?”
Ana wants to let them rest a little while longer.
Cindy’s concerned, “Yeah. But what if they come?”
Sawyer opens his eyes and remarks, “She’s lost." Ana insists, “I am not lost.”
Sawyer asks Ponce DeLeon{Ana} which way they're supposed to go.
Ana asks the genius {Sawyer} which way he would go .
His only reply is, “Hey, I’m with you. Sit tight and wait for Mr. Eko to show up and guide us.”
Ana blames Sawyer’s friend running off. “Eko would still be here now, wouldn’t he? You sure didn’t have any problem leaving him behind though, huh?”
Sawyer tells her Mike only cares about himself and his kid; neither has squat to do with him.
Michael {Orange shirt} strolls out of the jungle just in time to hear Sawyer say that. Michael's glad Sawyer feels that way.
Sawyer didn’t expect to see Michael again.  Jin talks to Sawyer in Korean, asks about his wound.
Sawyer- “Yeah yeah, Chewie I know. My arms about to fall off.”
Ana asks Eko if he’s okay. He is, but tells her they have to go, “I saw them.”
The awake folks seem concerned and ask how many were there. Libby, with her walking stick, asks if he saw the kids.
Eko, the guide says, “We need to go, now.”
Ana announces they’re moving out.

Shannon and Sayid are resting in each other's arms. She asks him if all this intent means they’re serious now.
Sayid- “Quite definitely not. I do this for all the girls I meet on deserted islands.”
She finds that amusing and whispers, “Don’t go anywhere.”
Sayid- “Where are you going?”
Shannon is thirsty so Sayid offers to get her some water.   He zips up, takes an empty bottle and heads off. A slight breeze blows out the candle and she assumes its Sayid’s quick return. She looks up and sees Walt dripping wet.   Walt says something to her, only it sounds backwards.


Shannon is outside the tent looking toward the water.
Sayid runs and tells her “There’s nothing. No one there.”
Shannon insists, “I saw Walt.”
Sayid- “It was a dream, Shannon.”
She insists, “He was here. I saw him. He went into the tent.”
Sayid was only gone for a few moments, “You must have fallen asleep .”
Shannon- “This was not a dream! I saw Walt!”
Sayid-“Then where is he?”
Charlie shows up and asks them what’s going on.
Sayid tells him nothing, “It’s just a dream. Everything’s fine.”
Shannon seems insulted and storms off.
Claire wanders over and asks Charlie what’s wrong.    Charlie informs her, “Shannon had a nightmare.”     He asks why Aaron is up. {Not sleeping.}

Claire woke him because she heard screams and got worried, “Would you rather I have I left him over there, alone?”   They bicker about waking the baby and about the running toward the screams. Claire feels it sounded like Shannon needed help.
Charlie fusses that now the baby’s awake he’s gonna need feeding and he’ll be up all night, fussy all day. Charlie will tend to Aaron; He kisses Aaron on the head. {Watch Claire here.}

Inside the “love tent”, Shannon angrily packs a bag of her stuff. {Did she have a bag before?} Sayid tells her to “Wait. Wait. Come back with me and let's talk about this.”
Shannon-“Do you believe me?”
He just stares at her. She’s insulted, “No. I know what I saw.” She walks away.

Little girl ballet students are being directed by Shannon. {They are out of sync.}
Sophie asks if her papa saw her.   Shannon fibs and says she thinks he did; as she can see “papa” if flirting/whispering with another dance instructor.
Shannon thanks the “ladies” for a great class today.
{She is sure to tell/touch a tiny Asian girl she did very nice work.}
Shannon and her friend giggle as the little girls leave with their families. Her friend shares, in a mock French accent that Sophie’s dad wants her to be their Au Pair.  Shannon’s cell rings; it’s Sabrina, her step mother.
Sabrina is headed to St. Sebastian’s hospital where Shannon’s father has been taken. Mr. Rutherford has been in an accident. She’ll meet her there.


At St Sebastian’s Mrs. Rutherford and Shannon are met by the Doctor, who tells them about the head on collision with an SUV Adam was in. {Dr. Jack Shephard hurries by with a file}

The Dr.-“Why don’t we talk down here.”
Adam suffered massive internal injuries, he stopped breathing at the site of the accident, “I’m afraid we were unable to resuscitate him.”
Mrs. Rutherford would like to see him; Shannon her step daughter is invited to come along.

Daylight:
Ana Lulu asks Eko, “How much further to their camp?”
Eko- “A day. Maybe more. Maybe less.” {Hmmm...We’ve heard this similar dialog before.}
Ana thanks him for being so specific.
Weakening Sawyer falls to his knees, but tells Libby he’s fine. She wants to take a look at his shoulder.
Sawyer- “What are you...a Doctor?”
Libby- “A clinical psychologist."
Sawyer- “You’re a shrink. Maybe you autta talk to my shoulder.”
She wonders how he got shot anyway. Smart ass Sawyer tells her, “With a gun.”  Michael tells Libby Sawyer got shot when they took his kid.
Sawyer asks her if it’s bad and Libby confirms it's bad, “But it’s not real bad. "You’ll be okay. Let's go.”    Libby looks troubled.
Michael tries to give Sawyer a hand but he’s fine. Bernard offers a hand, but it’s not taken.




Hurley and Rose hang clothes on the line made of wires. He asks her “again” why they’re doing this here when there’s a dryer in the hatch. Rose confesses she doesn’t like the hatch.
Hurley- “Oh. It’s because of the doomsday button, isn’t it?”

Rose feels they don’t need a dryer when they’ve got sun and fresh air, “Wouldn’t wanna spoil ourselves now, would we?”
Shannon and Vincent ask the two if they know where Michael and Walt left the stuff that they didn’t take with them on the raft is; she’s specifically looking for their clothes.
Hurley directs her to their stuff on the beach back where their tent is. Shannon leaves.
Rose says to Hurley that it can’t be easy losing the one person you love on the island. {Watch Hurley here!}
Shannon digs through Michael and Walt’s stuff. She takes Walt’s shirt and shoves it into Vincent’s nose, “That’s his, right? Come on, get a good whiff. You’re always trying to run off and find him. Then find him. Find Walt.”
Vincent, on a leash, takes off running. They run through the jungle. Vincent separates from Shannon right at Boone’s grave marker.{Coincidence? I think not.}





Aaron is crying in his Locke made cradle.Claire {wears 2 shirts} apologizes to the baby for waking him, “Please stay awake for eight hours straight. Isn’t that just cruel and unusual punishment?”
Locke-"How’s that cradle treatin ya?"


Claire tells him the cradle is great, “It’s the baby that’s the problem.”
She tells Locke he just won’t sleep.
Locke asks her permission to...


Locke wraps the baby in his blue blanket, “Babies like the feeling of being constricted. It’s not until we’re older we develop the desire to be free.”

Once Aaron is all constricted, he stops crying.{Mission accomplished! lol} He hands the quiet baby to Claire. Claire thinks everybody knows more about her baby than she does.
Locke- “Everybody?”
Claire shares with Locke that Charlie read her the riot act last night for waking him. As mad as that made her, turns out he was right. It's like they're playing mum and dad to "this" baby, yet she does not remember marrying him. Seriously, they're practically strangers "him and me", for all she knows Charlie's a religious freak. Locke seriously doubts that.
Claire- "Then why is he carrying around a Virgin Mary statue?"
She tells Locke its one of the little statues; Charlie said he found it in the jungle.
Locke seems a bit taken aback., "Hmmm? How 'bout that."

Shannon sits in front of Boone's grave marker holding his dark corded necklace.














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Shannon, dressed in black and black headband. They are at her father's funeral; it's being held ocean side/beach. She sits, starring, struck with grief.
A familiar voice from behind her says, "Death sucks, doesn't it?"

She is happy to see Boone; they hug.
Boone holds her tight, "I'm so sorry, Shannon."
Shannon holds on to him and says, "You came back."
Sabrina sees them in their embrace.



Boone takes two tiny teacups from Shannon's doll house. {It's VERY Alice in Wonderland to me.}

Boone asks where her poster of Marky Mark went.
Shannon's explanation is she's 18. {Age}
Boone "pours" something from a flask into the tiny teacups. Shannon thinks his mom's gonna freak.

Boone-"It's a wake. I mean seriously...who doesn't serve booze at a wake?" {Scotch} Boone sits next to her on the bed, raises his tiny teacup and toasts to Shannon's dad. {Bottoms up!}
He hands her gum, saying, "Maybe after all this you'll come visit me in New York."
Boone sips from the flask.
Shannon won't have to visit if she gets that job at the Martha Graham dance company; she'll be living there. She put in for an internship. It's a 1 in 3,000 chance, but she feels she may get it. Boone trying to be supportive says "absolutely", but it seems Shannon doesn't think he means it. They chat about Shannon not speaking to Boone's mother.
Shannon-"She's going through her things, and I'm going through mine."
She feels Sabrina hates her. Boone encourages her to talk to Sabrina but Shannon feels from day one Sabrina resented her relationship with him/father.
{Flash Whoosh}
The Tailies cross the rocky area near the water. Sawyer {w/machete} is getting weaker. Eko sees this and announces they need a break.
Ana the bitchy boss yells out, "5 minutes!" {Eko hands Sawyer the water container.}
Eko stands, surveying the path ahead.
Ana asks him what he's looking at. Eko says they have to cut inland.
Ana questions their heading into the jungle, "They said their people were on the beach. If we keep walking..."
Eko notes the beach goes into a peninsula ahead, "It may not be passable."
Ana- "May not?"
Eko-"May not."
Ana asks him if he's doing this to get the cowboy back faster, "You would risk our lives to help him?"
It's the only way Eko knows.
The bitch tells him, "I liked you better when you weren't talking."















Claire walks over with swaddled Aaron and tells Locke, "I can't believe he's still asleep."
Locke whispers that swaddling works every time. {Was Locke looking in a broken piece of mirror or something else?}




Claire asks if he would like to hold him.
Locke declines.
Claire has him put his arms out and she places Aaron in them.
Locke likes the good "baby" smell.
Claire agrees. {Uh...he's not food. lol} Charlie walks up.
Claire reveals to Charlie, "John just taught me a new trick. Swaddling."
Charlie came to take Aaron so Claire can take her walk. He gestures to get the baby but Locke looks at Claire. {Why? permission?}
Locke says it's great timing as he's got to get going. {Watch Claire when Locke gets up to hand the baby over.} Claire thanks John for his help and he heads off.
Charlie holds Aaron and is looking at Claire.
Claire-"What?"





Eko and his stick cautiously lead the Tailies through the jungle. They all step gingerly on the path. Libby steps and cracks a branch.
They all whisper, "Shhh!"


Jin says something in Korean to the weakening Sawyer. They bicker; Sawyer responds in English that he's fine. Jin is trying to tell him something.
Aggravated Ana runs over, "Shhh ut up!!"


Michael- "What? They can't talk at all?"
Ana says if he talks he's gonna get us all killed.
Michael-"By what? Them?...I thought they lived a day back that way?"
Ana wants him to shut his mouth, "And get your buddy over here moving."
Michael's getting pissed off with that New York attitude {I know so well} coming out., "What happened to you people?"
He walks right up to Ana, "You want us to take you back with us, fine. But you want me to keep quiet. Then you need to tell me why I have to."
Ana looks back at Eko and Cindy {Why? Permission?} and shares with Michael, "They came the first night that we got here. They took three of us. Nothing happened for two weeks. Then they came back and took nine more. They're smart. And they're animals. And they can be anywhere at any time."
Jin looks around.
Ana continues to say that they're moving through "their jungle", just so he can save his little hick friend. "And if you think that one gun and one bullet is gonna stop them...think again. So shut your mouth and keep moving." {Re-think your move. Hmmm.}
Michael stares and blurts out, "They took my son."
Ana- "They took a lot of things."

Shannon {Holding dark cord necklace} and Vincent {leash} are sitting by Boone's grave marker. {It looks different}
Sayid sits on the log next to her and reveals that he too knows what it is to lose someone you care deeply about.
Shannon- "You really think this is all about Boone?...I saw Walt."
Sayid wants to know then why are they sitting at Boone's grave. She gets up in a huff, takes Vincent by the leash and tells Sayid, "Just go back, Sayid."
He asks her where she's going.
Shannon-"To find him."



Shannon looks sad as she sits at the table. {She has a ballet barre in her apt.} Her friend brings her a white letter size envelope. {It has a yellow address label on it}
Shannon says she can't open it so she pushes the envelope across the table and tells her friend to open it.
Shannon's been waiting six months for this letter, there's no way her friend is opening it.
Shannon opens the letter to receive the news that she got it. The girls jump up and down with joy; Shannon's going to New York. The phone rings, apparently her rent check bounced.
Her friend is very surprised, "But, you're like...rich."


Shannon sits on the couch in Sabrina's house. Rude Sabrina would have offered her something to drink but she has to be at a meeting in 10 minutes. Shannon timidly tells Sabrina her rent checks are bouncing. Sabrina feels that's what she gets when you make withdrawals and don't make deposits. {Hmmm...taking never giving. Karma}
Shannon outright asks when will she get the money from the will her father left her. Sabrina informs Shannon there was no will; they had a living trust, "Everything passed to me."
There was nothing specifically designated to Shannon.
Shannon is shocked, "Why would he do that?"
Sabrina- "Well. Maybe he just wanted you to find your own way. We all have to work, Shannon. Most of us are the better for it."
Shannon can work, she explains she got the prestigious internship; she won't be earning any money but will be working 16 hours a day.
Sabrina- "The only thing I've seen you do 16 hours a day straight is sleep."
Shannon just needs to get to New York.
Sabrina mocks her habit of changing her mind. Last year Shannon was interested in interior design. Sabrina knows Shannon will never pay her back, "And you'll only hate yourself even more."
Shannon pleads with her, "I really want this. I can do this."
Sabrina apologizes-"You're on your own."


Lucky Locke rolls double sixes. He's playing backgammon with Charlie.
Locke hopes Charlie didn't get the wrong idea about seeing him with the baby.
Locke's aware that Charlie and Claire are close and he spends a lot of time with Aaron, "I just wouldn't want to over step my bounds."
Charlie asks if Claire told him they had a fight.
She didn't say it was a fight.
Charlie mentions she was gonna give it up for adoption and asks if Claire mentioned that to Locke. Yep, she told Locke when he built the cradle.
Charlie- "Ah, of course...When you built the cradle."
Charlie feels Claire's got a bit to learn about being a mum, "Responsibility and all."
Locke thinks that's an interesting thing for a heroin addict to say.
Charlie corrects him, "Recovering addict."
Locke gives him, "Recovering...It's your turn."
We can hear the dice get thrown.

Eko leads the Tailies through the high grass.
At the end of the line Jin is helping weak Sawyer.
Bernard offers help and his hand, Jin turns him down. Bernard looks puzzled by that. Michael and Jin seem to communicate/understand each other. Michael tells Jin to take a break, he'll help Sawyer.
Sawyer says to Michael, "You suddenly give a damn about me."
He tells them both to leave him alone, "I got it."
Sawyer takes a few steps and collapses.
Michael tries to wake passed out Sawyer. {Listen to the voice that says Sawyer.}
Sawyer opens his eyes and says to Michael, "I would have left you behind."
Michael-"Shut up, man. Don't try to..."
Weak Sawyer says, "I did leave you behind."
Michael- "Yeah, well...Good thing I aint you."
They share a smile then Sawyer passes out.

Jin calls out for water in English. Everybody runs over to them except for annoyed Ana and Eko. Libby and Mike try to pour the water into Sawyer's mouth but he doesn't respond. Libby says it's due his fever, infection, and he's dehydrated.  Ana tells them they gotta keep moving.   She doesn't give a shit about Sawyer. Jin says something to her in Korean.
Ana- "You wanna stay, that's fine. But we're rolling out."
Bernard steps in to say to Ana they just can't leave him.
Libby thinks they could rest a little while he'll regain consciousness.
Ana- "Rest? Here?"
She asks Libby, "Do you remember what happened to us? What they did to us? You remember Goodwin?"
Eko looks unimpressed with her display.
Cindy thinks Ana's right and they should push on.
Michael jumps in, "You know what...I don't remember Goodwin whispers. Ana draws her gun and tells them to "RUN!"

Shannon is in her red door apartment packing boxes. Boone shows up.
He pulls up a chair, sits down and tells Shannon, "She said no."
Shannon looks like a mess; her hair is disheveled and she looks beat.
Boone guesses "she didn't know why I asked for the money."
Broken Shannon asks if she can crash at Boone's place in New York for a while, just until she gets on her feet.
Boone shares the news that he's leaving New York because she offered him a really good job. Shannon is blown away that Boone is going to work for his mother. He has a white envelope for her, it's all the money he has right now. Boone's trust fund will kick in at the end of the month, then after that he can absolutely keep her afloat. Insulted Shannon thanks him but she will figure out a way to make her own money.
Boone compassionately says, "But who knows when that's gonna be. Just take it."
Shannon gets defensive, "Why? You don't think I can do it?"
He didn't say that.
Shannon- "You believe I can or don't you, Boone?"
He doesn't answer.
She gets pissed off, puts the envelope in his hands, tells him to go work for his mother, she doesn't want his money.
Boone's just trying to help her.
Boone turns to leave.
Thunder rolls.


A pouring rain thunder storm in the jungle.
Vincent is literally pulling Shannon.
Sayid is running behind them.
Shannon falls and Vincent runs ahead.
Sayid wants to help her up and she demands he does not help her up.
Sayid- "Let's go back."

Shannon looks at him and asks, "Why don't you believe me? I need you to believe in me."
Sayid tells her he does believe in her.
Shannon doesn't believe that, "You don't. No one does. They think that I'm some kind of joke. They think I'm worthless."
Sayid looks in to her eyes and tells her she is not worthless. Upset Shannon says he says that now, "but you don't...You're just gonna leave me. I know as soon as we get out of here, you're just gonna leave me."
She's crying.
Sayid tenderly touches her face and tells her he will never leave her, "I love you. And I believe you."
Shannon- "You do?"
Sayid- "I do."
Shannon is visibly relieved. They hug.
They both hear whispers.
Sayid sees something over Shannon's shoulder. It's Walt!
Walt puts his pointer finger to his lips to say, "Shhhhh."
Sayid just stares.
Shannon asks Sayid, "Do you see him?"
Stunned Sayid just nods yes.
Shannon turns back to face Walt and he's still in the "Shhhh" stance.
Shannon calls out to Walt. {We get a view of Shannon and Sayid from behind Walt. We actually see the back of Walt.}
Shannon yells for him and starts to run to him, but Walt takes off running.
Sayid is motionless, staring, almost hypnotized.
Shannon yells again for Walt and this snaps Sayid out of his trance.
Sayid calls out for Shannon and runs after her. Sayid trips over a branch. He takes off running again. A gunshot rings out. Sayid makes his way to see Shannon turn around and face him. She has been shot. She falls into his arms.
She appears to die in his arms.
He holds her as he cries. He looks up to see Bitch Ana Lucia with her gun drawn.
Mr. Eko stands behind her. Jin and Michael see it's Sayid holding shot Shannon.
Sayid is pissed. {He didn't do a good job of protecting her, if it was her he was to protect.}



















Abandoned is a GREAT episode!! Let's get to it.

Things to note...Questions to ask...
* Eye color.
* Sawyer remembers leaving Michael behind. This must have happened already. The last time he did something a bit different.
* Should Michael "remember" Goodwin?
* Charlie is very comfortable taking care of Aaron; it’s almost fatherly.
* Alice in Wonderland. Down the Rabbit Hole. Jack.
* Trick. Believe.
* Lost. Direction. Guide. Backwards.
* Chance. Odds. Game.
* Choreographing a ballet/dance/exercise. Teach/instruct/direct. Student. Passed.
* Playing roles.
* Languages. Linguistics. French. Korean.
* Dream. Nightmare. Vision. Rest. Sleep. Awake. Remember. Don't remember. "Ssshhh" Consciousness.
* Rose prefers sun and fresh air to the dryer. Does she prefer nature as opposed to machines/technology?  Also, does she know the use of the hatch and its dryer is only temporary?
* Why didn't anyone accept Bernard's help when he offered it?
* So, the dog’s always trying to run off and find Walt. Hmmm. Is Walt nearby?
* Claire refers to Aaron as "this baby" and says things like, "It's the baby that's the problem." Charlie even refers to Aaron as "it".
* "...the first night that we got here." Speaking more as if they arrived not "crashed" there. And Shannon says to Sayid "...as soon as we get out of here". They all speak as if they are on the "island" for a reason, like they arrived on vacation, not that they're "crash" survivors waiting to be rescued.
* If it’s not a dream and both Shannon and Sayid saw Walt, could it be a projected image? Smoke and mirrors, so to speak.   If it’s a projected image, that could account for the audio being played backwards.
*What's real and not real? Who is real and not real?

Vocabulary and Research...
* Pepper's ghost is an illusion technique used in theater and in some magic tricks. Using a plate glass and special lighting techniques, it can make objects seem to appear or disappear, or make one object seem to "morph" into another.
* Musion Eyeliner is a modern commercial variation of a stage illusion called Pepper’s ghost, using high definition video projection or LED screens to allow moving images to appear within a live stage setting.
* Holography is a technique that allows the light scattered from an object to be recorded and later reconstructed so that it appears as if the object is in the same position relative to the recording medium as it was when recorded. The image changes as the position and orientation of the viewing system changes in exactly the same way as if the object were still present, thus making the recorded image (hologram) appear three dimensional.
* Tomography is imaging by sections or sectioning. A device used in tomography is called, while the image produced is a Tomogram.  The method is used in medicine, archeology, biology, geophysics, oceanography, material science, astrophysics and other sciences. {X-rays, CAT scans, MRI}
* An au pair is a foreign-national domestic assistant working for, and living as part of a family. The title comes from the French term , meaning "on a par" or "equal to", indicating that the relationship is intended to be one of equals: the au pair is intended to become a member of the family,
* Ballet: American slang for strip club.
* Mauna-Vow of silence 
* Cradle: 1).A bed for a baby, oscillating, rockers or swinging on pivots. 2). (figuratively) The place of origin, or in which anything is nurtured or protected in the earlier period of existence. 3). (figuratively) Infancy,or very early life. i.e. from the cradle to the grave. 4). A framework of timbers, or iron bars, moving upon ways or rollers, used to support, lift, or carry ships or other vessels, heavy guns, etc., as up an inclined plane, or across a strip of land, or in launching a ship. 5). A case for a broken or dislocated limb.
* Swaddle- To restrain or restrict.





I was excited to see the Alice in Wonderland theme running through this one.  The Tailies are on their journey to the beach camp.  The life size chess pieces are on the move, or more like being moved around.  A few chess pieces were even removed from the board.

The entire scene with Boone and Shannon in her room after the wake is...very Wonderland!  Knowing how Alice's experiences are happening in the book, can we assume the experiences the "Island" residents are having are happening while they are asleep, in their subconscious or unconscious mind?  Well with all the references to sleeping {and "a wake"}  running ramped here, I believe that is the case.

There is a definite nod to being guided.   Are some of the people we see "guides"?
We also witnessed a lot of carrying going on in this episode; we see the Tailies physically carry Sawyer.  It was a burden to do this, but it was necessary to work together to get to the top of the hill. Shannon has been carrying some very heavy emotional baggage/burdens, but then again, they all are.

This episode showed us what Shannon was looking for. She wanted to deal with the pain of loss but more importantly she wanted someone to truly believe in her. They all are desperately looking for something, something within themselves.

We all want people that are close to us to believe in us, but we need to believe in ourselves first. You have to find your own way, even when it's very hard and even when you don't want to. Struggling through something can be extremely painful, but when we finally do find what we're looking for, all on our own...we'll be the better for it.

Love to all who are "LOST"™

Here's a pic combo of the two times we see Boone's grave marker.



















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Disclaimer: I never claim to know everything about the show and my thoughts by no means make me right! The things I share here are my views and/or opinions. I don't claim to catch every single detail either! You all know I hate spoilers! And I stand clear of reading certain sites as to not take me off my own course of research. The one thing I don't need to do here is rehash all of the obvious clues from an episode; we all know what they are. Understood? Let the fun begin! I'll only note things that I know come up as clues later, but need to be noted when they first show up and things I find that will be of importance.

THE GLASS BALLERINA.

Let's talk about LOST! The Glass Ballerina.

A beautiful glass ballerina figurine is tumbling through the air. It crashes down and shatters in front of the fireplace.
A little girl runs away from the broken figure.

The little girl sits at the piano. {A metronome keeps tempo/time} SHE IS NOT IN TEMPO/TIME WITH THE METRONOME.
She hears the door open; she stops playing and stops the metronome.
Mr. Paik enters the room with the broken pieces of the figurine in a white bag/sac. The little girl backs away from him. This is Sun.
He asks the child if she broke the ballerina.
Sun- "NO."   She says that the maid broke it.
Mr. Paik tells her if the maid did it he'd be forced to fire her, so he asks her a second time.
Sun stands her ground  saying it was the maid's fault.
A frustrated Mr. Paik walks out.
He little girl appears to have no guilt over her decision to lie.

Sun looks in a mirror and splashes water on her face. She is on the boat. Jin knocks on the bathroom door, tells her to open the door. Sun isn't feeling well.
She says it’s, "Morning sickness."
We see a shot of the sailboat with black smoke rising up in the background.
Sayid is working on a map with an obvious marking pointing north. {Binoculars.}

Sayid is wearing a watch.
Sun translates Jin's request, "My husband says it’s time to leave. He doesn't think Jack and the others are coming. It's been over a day since we lit the fire. It should be here by now."
Sayid insists that Jack knows they are there, "He's counting on our signal."
He goes on to suggest that maybe, if Jack is North of there, the mountains would be blocking their signal and he wouldn't be able to see it.  They need to sail forward along the coast, clear the mountains and start another signal fire.  All along Sun is translating to Jin but Jin won't go for it.
Sayid tells Sun he “Told Jack I would light a fire. I'm not abandoning him."
When Sayid says that, Jin turns away.  Sun attempts to explain to Jin but he gets pissed, shakes her and says, "Sayid is not your husband." {Sayid doesn't even react.}
Sun says to Sayid, "My husband thinks we have to do as he says, because he's the only one who knows how to sail. But he's wrong." {Ah, another wonderful secret brought to you by, Sun!} She will help sail the boat. She defies Jin.

Jack is in his glass cell sleeping in the corner.
A video camera with red blinking light is watching him.
A man guarding him opens the door and Juliet enters bearing food on a tray.   Jack wakes up. She asks him if he's feeling better.  Juliet  made the soup herself. {Well if she isn't friggin' Martha Stewart!} She knocks on the door 2 times to signal the guard to open it and she leaves.
Jack sits in the corner never saying a word.
Juliet knocks twice on another door and Ben opens it, removes his glasses.
He has been watching everything and everyone via various locations video monitors.
Ben-"You never made soup for me."
Just then a woman climbs down a ladder; she asks if she's interrupting something, as she looks at them with a bit of suspicion.   Colleen reports to Ben that they have a situation.   Colleen informs them Ryan radioed in that "The Iraqi found the decoy village."
Ben feels that's good, that's what they wanted.    Colleen goes on to tell him that they have a sailboat. This shocks Ben! "How?"
Juliet is unimpressed as she feels that "Sailing in circles will keep them busy."
Colleen fears "They could find us."
All of this has worried Ben. A team could be put together within the hour. Colleen gives Juliet a dirty look and leaves.
Ben-"And Colleen, I want that boat."

Sawyer in his cage/cell picks up a black rock, trying to retrieve food like the bears.
We hear the fake sounds of nature/animals. Then fan fair music plays signaling he got food.
Kate wakes up in her cage/cell.
Kate- "Nice alarm clock."
Sawyer "I've woke up to worse."

Armed Others take Sawyer and Kate out of the cages; they are given lunch boxes.
As they walk to wherever, they are interrupted by Colleen.   She speaks privately to Danny and he gives her a kiss on the cheek. {They sure do have a lot of guns.} Sawyer watches them.

On the sailboat Sun sees Sayid load a rifle; he is focused!  Jin is looking through the binoculars. Sun apologizes to Jin for disagreeing with him in front of Sayid. Jin says she shouldn't have disagreed period.
Jin- "Why did you even come with us?"
Sun didn't want to be without him.

Sun is lying in bed. The man next to her is revealed to be Jae.   He asks her what's wrong.
Sun-"What's wrong is that I'm married."
He seems unimpressed with that answer; they kiss.
Sun tells him she’s sorry, "I can't." {Note the dark lamp on the table with the light lampshade. Red.}
Jae gives her a gift of PEARLS! Sun  can't wear them because Jin will ask where they came from.
Jae tells her in English he doesn't want to share her anymore, "Your English is excellent now. You can go to America."
There is a knock at the door. Surprised Sun says no one knows she is there.
Jae answers the door and a hotel worker in uniform lets in Mr. Paik.
Jae-"I'm sorry I didn't realize…”
Mr. Paik walks right into the bedroom and sees Sun in the bed wrapped in RED sheets. He tells her to get dressed and walks out.
Suns face initially shows shame, but then...

Sawyer and Kate are led to an area where many people are at work with building something. They are grating and pounding down the ground.
Danny instructs the two- "Alright here's the gig, see these rocks here, that's where you two come in. {He points to Kate} "You're gonna chop em loose, {points to Sawyer} "You're gonna haul em outta here."
Kate comments about her working in a dress.
Danny tells her it's up to her; she can take it off if she wants. Sawyer wouldn't mind one bit if she took it off! {Ah, true love. Uh...Or lust}
Danny goes on to instruct them if they need anything they must raise their hand and they get 10 minutes for lunch.
Like a student in school Sawyer raises his hand but Danny says "No Questions".
Sawyer (child-like) says "She got to ask a question.”
Danny not missing a beat says if they try to run off they will be shocked.
Sawyer mishears him thinking he says shot, 'without a warning?'
Danny continues, if they talk, touch, slacking- if they do anything at all that pisses him off, they will be shocked!
Kate says she's not getting to work until she sees Jack.
Without hesitation Danny walks up to Kate and shocks Sawyer! He tells her "That was a ¼ charge, anymore questions?"
Danny tells Sawyer when he's "able to walk, the wheelbarrow's right over there." (Wheelbarrow- 3 wheels.)
{FLASH}
Jin had been summoned to Mr. Paik’s office.
Paik informs Jin "We have a problem." He pushes a file in front of Jin.
Jin opens file to see there's a picture of Jae.
Mr. Paik goes on to tell Jin that this man has been stealing from him and he needs Jin to put an end to it. {Note the liquor in the bottle behind Paik. Also the unique statues and art.}
Jin asks what he stole.
Paik says that's not important. Jin is told that 'delivering a message' as usual will not suffice in this situation.   He NEEDS to put an end to it!
Jin tells him he cannot do that.
Paik says he can.
Jin replies that "It's not his job to..."
Paik-"Your job is what I say it is!"
Jin feels then he can’t work for him anymore.   Jin slams the file down and quits, bows to Paik and starts to walk away.
Upset Paik tells Jin - "You don’t get to quit! This man has shamed me."
Paik says that Jin is "married to his daughter that makes you my son" {as he touches Jin's right shoulder} my shame is your shame. I need you to restore our family's honor."
He picks up the file and gives it back to Jin.
Jin takes it and bows to Mr. Paik.

Jin is on the sailboat cutting the head off a fish with a cleaver.   Sun calls him to the deck. Jin climbs up through the hatch. Sun points out{with 2 friggin fingers, no less}.
Sayid gives Jin the binoculars to see the dock with a covered area at the end.
Jin-"Others."
Sayid comments that the docks decaying, overgrown, like it hasn't been used in quite some time, "Whoever built it they're not here now."
Sayid says they'll bring the boat in, tie it to the dock, build a fire on the beach, the visibility's excellent, Jack will see them for miles.
Jin- "Safe?" in English.
Sayid-"Of course it's safe." {As if Jin asked a silly question!}

Kate is chopping rocks in the dress. Sawyer wheeling away the rocks. There is a small fire burning. {Why?}
Sawyer is eying Kate's backside!
Juliet and Danny are under a covered shelter looking at what appears to be 'plans' or blue prints/diagrams.
Danny won't stand for Sawyer taking a breather so he demands he get back to work! Sawyer calls him boss. {Again}
Rocks are thrown and sounds come from the shrubs; someone is trying to get Kate's attention. It is Alex.
Alex tells Kate to be sure they don't see them talking.  Alex asks if they are keeping her in the cages. She also asks about another guy her age named Karl, was in there with her.
Kate says NO, it's just Sawyer and her. {Like this girl knows Sawyer?}
Alex happens to say, "You’re not even supposed to be in that cage."
Kate looks confused and asks her what she's talking about, who are you? {Kate's not supposed to be in there! What changed to make her be in there? Where was she supposed to be?}
Alex asks where she got the dress because it belongs to her.
Sawyer walks over.  Kate tells him to "Quit staring at her ass."
Danny yells for them to shut up!

At the dock, Sun carries a red container of gasoline.
The dock's sign says "PALA FERRY".
Sayid is preparing for start a fire. {Again}
Sayid tells her to help her husband; they need as much wood as they can find.
Su-"We're building quite a large fire."
Sayid says it’s so Jack will see the smoke.
Sun wants to know why he's lying to her.
Sayid-"And what would you know about lying Sun?"
She tells him that he's putting their lives in danger.
Sayid shares that he is "fairly certain that our friends have been captured. There are tracks all over the dock; they're fresh. As resent as yesterday."
Sun-"You said this dock was abandoned."
Sayid-"That would be part of the lying you mentioned."
Sun -"You're not building this fire for our people, you're building it for the Others."
Sayid-"I suspect that when they see the smoke, they'll send a scout party to investigate. By then it will be night. When they arrive, I'll ambush them. I'll take two of them hostage, and I'll kill the rest."
Sun- "Two?"
Sayid- "One to make the other cooperate."
Sun wants to help. Sayid is sorry, "But I'm going to have to ask you lie to Jin for another 20 minutes."
{Does Jin really understand English ?!}
Sayid explains to her once the fire is lit, it will be too late to go back. He tosses the red gas can.
{Flash}
Sun is looking at her reflection in a dark plate/dish. Jin enters through double doors; he has a file. Jin is troubled.
Sun looks pretty dressed in black and white. Jin sits at the table. {Note what appears to be 2 plates hanging on the wall- framed}
Sun lights a match; her hands shake. Candles are lit. Jin mentions he saw her father today and he called him son for the first time.
This surprises Sun, "Why would he do that?"
Jin- "He wants me to deliver a message."
Sun -"No. You don't."
Things aren't that simple.  Sun suggests they can start a new life. Jin feels if they run away her father would...{would what?}
Sun-"He won't know where we are. And you won't have to do this anymore."
Jin-“I do this for you, Sun.  I do it because your father expects it.  I do this because that's what it takes to be married to you."
Sun-"And what does it take to be married to you?"
Pissed off Jin takes the file and leaves to deliver the message.

Sayid is building his fire.  Jin is pissed; he wants the "GUN" from Sayid.
Sayid-"I don't think I understand." {Yeah, right.}
Jin calls for Sun and in Korean admits to her that he knows what they are planning. Sun shares with Sayid that Jin knows what they are doing; he knows it's a trap!
Sun-"He says he understands English better than I think he does {Fucking Finally! There it is!!!} He knows I betrayed him."
Demanding Jin says- "Gun."
Sayid gives him the gun. {WOW! Jin knows how to handle that gun! Does Sayid understand Korean?}
Sayid tells Sun she'd be safer on the boat.  He also tells her, if by chance they get past them there's another gun, it's inside the blue tarp beneath the Geiger counter.   Sun feels if the Others get past them that would mean her husband is dead and she wouldn't care anymore.  Sayid reiterates the gun is inside the tarp. {So does he know for sure, they will get past them?}

Danny is working on those blue prints again.
Sawyer is hauling rocks. Juliet and Sawyer share a look.  She tosses him some water in a canteen. He pours it out in defiance.
Sawyer is hurting for Kate; he hates to see what she is going through  . Sawyer walks over to her and plants a giant loving kiss!  {Kate's kiss here is very different than her kiss with Jack. She's not uncomfortable with this kiss like she obviously was with Jack. With Jack there was confusion and a sense of 'what am I doing?' The kiss with Sawyer was almost- "Right." Not that I'm an expert judging other peoples kisses! LOL}
Danny is pissed! They run over and knock Sawyer in the head with the butt of a rifle. Sawyer fights back and gets possession of a rifle.
Juliet calls him James as she has a gun pointed at Kate and Danny Shocks Sawyer! {Sawyer loves Kate.}
Night:
Sayid and Jin in the trees...waiting.
The fire is burning.
Sun is on the boat; she lights a fire for cooking.   Sun hears noises on deck. We see that people are indeed on deck.  Sun retrieves the gun from the blue tarp.
{Flash}
Gun on top of a picture/file of Jae, in the car.   Jin sits behind the wheel.

Jin looks in the rear view mirror at Jae talking to a doorman wearing a top hat.   Jin heads out after him.
Jin steps out of the elevator on the 2nd floor. {Ding!}
Jae is about to enter the double doors {number on the door 1516} has key card in his hand.   Jae's head is slammed into the door; then we see Jae get beat up inside the room.
Jin asks Jae, "Do you know who I am? Do you know why I'm here?"
Jae crying says he's sorry.
Jin tells him, then you know what I must do.  He pulls out a gun and puts gun and pillow against Jae's head. Jae is still apologizing.
Jin can't do it!
Jin tells Jae, "You will leave this country. Do you understand me? You will leave and never come back. Start a new life. And if I hear you've returned, if you have any contact at all, I will finish this. Am I clear? You don't exist!" {WOW!!}
Jae is left crying and Jin leaves.
We see Jin exit the building. He opens the car door, sits down. Jae crashes down upon the windshield of his car. Jae is holding the pearls.

Sayid and Jin in the trees. Sayid doesn't think they're coming.

On the boat with Others on deck, Colleen comes down the ladder {Again} into the cabin. Colleen silently notes the fire and the pot.  Sun is there holding the gun on her.   Sun wants to be let off the boat.  Colleen can't do that as it’s not her decision to make.  She tells Sun that 5 of her friends are up there.
Sun wants her to lower her voice.
Colleen tries to take a step ahead but Sun tells her stop or she'll shoot.
Colleen-"No you won't, Sun. I know you Sun Hwa Kwon, I know you're not a killer.  Despite what you may think, I am not the enemy, we are not the enemy. If you shoot me that's exactly what we'll become. {How would Colleen know all that? Hmmm?! YEAH!!!}
Colleen takes a few steps and again Sun threatens to shoot. The boat starts up and Sun shoots Colleen. {Sun kept her word here!}
There is a shootout on the boat.

Sayid and Jin hear this and run toward the boat. Sun tries to escape!

Jin is desperately calling out for Sun!
The boat is leaving! Shots are fired at Jin and Sayid.
Sun escapes through the boat hatch.
Tom sees her and shoots at her and Sun goes overboard!
Jin is yelling and swimming for her!  The boat leaves!  Jin fears the worst.  Sun finally answers him!
She is safe. They are together!
{Flash}
Emotional Sun is at Jae's funeral; she’s standing in front of a pagoda.
Mr. Paik tells crying Sun that she "shouldn't be here."
He is there because he does business with the young man's father. Paik shares with Sun he was told Jae jumped from a balcony. He must have felt great shame.  He tells her to go home to her husband.
Sun- "Will you ever tell Jin?"
Mr. Paik- "It's not my place to tell him."

Sun and Jin sit by the fire.  Jin tells her he doesn't know what he'd do with her- the both of them. {Referring to their unborn child}
Sayid comes over apologizes for "dragging you into this, "And please communicate to your husband that next time I will listen to him." {NEXT TIME!!!! And communicate with him yourself! HA!} They have a long walk ahead of them.

Night at the cages:
Sawyer and Kate get thrown into their cages. Weird animal sounds can be heard.
Kate asks what he was thinking! Sawyer says she was so damn cute swinging the damn pick ax, "Chain gang looks good on you, Freckles."
Sawyer gets up explains to her, "Two of those guards have some real fight in them. The rest of them, I ain't that much worried bout."
He goes on to detail the fighting style of the other guys, I.e. martial arts, etc... He tells her the zapper things have a safety on them. They talk about the look on their faces when Sawyer got the rifle. He figures they never saw any real action, "That blond who had a gun pointed at you, she would have shot you."
Kate asks why she called him James.
He admits that's his name and also admits she tastes like strawberries. {WTF? When did she have strawberries? The strawberries at the Ben breakfast? Didn't she have fish biscuits since then? LOL!} Awww, he tastes like fish biscuits.
He tells her that now they wait for them to make a mistake.

We see TV monitors. Ben has been watching!
Jack is on monitor 2.
Sawyer is on monitor 5.
There are 6 monitors.





Jack in his glass cell still sleeping in the corner. {He hasn't moved the whole time? The soup is still there.}
Ben is standing there, waking him up.
Ben brought his own chair.   Jack is out of it, groggy.
Amused Ben says to Jack-"You know what's crazy Jack? A week ago you and I were in exactly the opposite situation.  I was the one locked up and you were the one coming in for visits. And I know that you're angry that I lied to you about who I was but, hell, do you blame me? I mean let’s face it, if I'd told you I was one of those people that you and your friends have been calling Others all this time, it would have been right back to Sayid and his fists. Wouldn't it?
Jack-"What do you want from me?"
Ben-"I want for you to change your att…Perspective. And the first step in doing that would be for me to be decent enough to introduce myself honestly, so (he gets up, crouches down to Jack's level, extends hand to shake) Hi. My name is Benjamin Linus and I've lived on this Island my whole life."
Jack is not going to shake his hand.
Ben gets up and yells "Bring it in please."
Jack asks where Kate and Sawyer are. Ben says they're fine, they're close. {Close? Jack's not really underwater? Or That Kate and Sawyer are close-romantically?}

 

A TV is brought in room; it's behind the glass.
Ben has a remote in his pocket and tells Jack if he cooperates "We send you home."
Ben will tell him what he wants when the time is right, "Patience, Jack. Patience."
Jack asks if that's where he sent Walt and Michael.
Ben says yes.
Jack wants to know if you could leave the Island, why would you still be here.
Ben- "Yes Jack, Why would we be here?"
Jack thinks they're stuck there just like the Castaways.
Ben recounts- "Your flight crashed September 22, 2004.  Today is November 29, that means you've been on our Island 69 days.  And yes, we do have contact with the outside world." That how we know that George W. Bush was re-elected. Christopher Reeve {SUPERMAN!} has passed away. Boston Red Socks won the World Series.
Jack doesn't believe the Red Socks won 8 straight.
Ben shows him proof on TV!   Jack is shocked.
Ben taunts him- “That's home. {On the other side of the glass} If you listen to me. If you trust me. I will take you home."





The Glass Ballerina is a Great Episode!!!
Is Sun privy to her father’s business dealings?   Is she privy to business of the "Island"? Sun has shown us since the beginning that she is a secret keeper and liar.   She is capable of keeping her word as well as secrets. She is capable of at least pulling a trigger so she must be capable of throwing someone off a balcony.

Things to note...Questions to ask...
* Tarp...anagram=TRAP.   Escape. Exit.
* Sleeping. Wake up.
* Sun plays OUT OF TEMPO with the metronome, then STOPS it.
* Ben and the Others unaware of a sailboat? Could they not know about Kelvin or Desmond? Could this be a hint to another group of people on the island? How many groups of residents are on this island? Maybe they all just don't know what to call each other! LOL!
* "You never made soup for me.” Is this because they shared a romance and Juliet whips up an awesome soup? Or was Ben ever in the same position that Jack is in right now? Just a question...
* For a hot tropical place all these chicks love wearing 2 shirts!
* Everybody always has a backpack! Where the hell is the backpack store on the island? They need a place to carry all their collected items. Maybe it’s just a metaphor for carrying baggage.
* Jae's eyes are different.
* Jin understands English! Languages understood. I think Michael understands Korean. Could Hurley really know how to speak Korean? Maybe Sayid can speak French too! Or maybe one day he'll speak with a British accent! DAMN!
* Language/linguistics...learning
* What really happened to Jae? Did someone save Jin by finishing the job he was supposed to do? Did Jae kill himself? If not, someone had to be watching to know that Jin didn't see this job through. Did Sun do it?
* Where does Ben consider home? What is home to Ben? Where did Michael and Walt go? REALLY?
* "The outside world."...Proof that they are 'inside' something; in an “unreal world”.
* Video cameras everywhere, I mean everywhere around the "Island"!  Ben watches them. Is there anyone watching Ben? Who is watching the watchers?
* Fire. Signal Fire. Beacon. Light.
* The word Apollo- Apologize- Paulo. Sound kinda similar? lol
* Pearl necklace-Oysters and Pearls- Pearl Station
* Did we ever note how Suns hair got SO long in just 69 days. I'm just saying!
* Building something. Blue prints/Diagram/Plans.
* How long has Juliet been involved with the "Island", REALLY?
* Hints to children, child-like behavior and punishment.  Learning.
* Opposition.
* They are all in a LOOP! Circle.
* Fire wood, water, walk, silence, mirror, learn.
* Map=Key

Vocabulary and Research…
* Geiger counters are used to detect radiation, usually alpha and beta radiation, but also other types of radiation as well. The sensor is a Geiger-Muller tube.
*A Beacon is an intentionally conspicuous device designed to attract attention to a specific location. Beacons help guide navigators to their destinations. Types of navigation beacon include radar reflectors, radio beacons, and sonic or visual signals. Visual beacons range from small, single-pile structures to large lighthouses or light stations and are located on land or in water. Lighted beacons are called lights; unlighted beacons are called day beacons. Classically, beacons are fires lit at well-known locations on hills or high places, used either as lighthouses for navigation at sea, or for signaling over land that enemy troops are approaching, and alerting the defense.
* The Map. HM Melbourne Assessment Prison is an Australian remand and reception prison located in Spencer Street, Melbourne, Victoria. The prison is also known by the nickname 'The Map'.
- Map-In many programming languages, map is the name of a higher-order function that applies a given function to a sequence of elements (such as a list) and returns a sequence of results.
- Video games, a level (also known by many other names) is a discrete subdivision of a video game's virtual world or set of challenges.
- Map of the mind. A diagram used to represent words, ideas, tasks or other items linked to and arranged radially around a central key word or idea.
- A pendulum is a mass (or bob) on the end of a string of negligible mass, which, when initially displaced, will swing back and forth under the influence of gravity over its central (lowest) point. The regular motion of a pendulum can be used for time keeping; pendulums are used to regulate pendulum clocks.
The most widespread application is for timekeeping. A pendulum whose period is 2 seconds is called the seconds pendulum since each swing takes one second. Clocks that keep time with the use of pendulums lose accuracy due to friction. Pendulums are also widely used as metronomes for musicians.
-A metronome is any device that produces a regulated aural, visual or tactile pulse to establish a steady tempo in the performance of music.
Also Click track.
Tempo is always measured in beats per minute (BPM); metronomes can be set to variable tempi, usually ranging from 40 to 208 BPM.
Beat
Rhythm



A very interesting thing I want to point out is that you can always exchange the Castaways usage of the word "dock or doc" for "Jack" and the story seems to connect right back to him.
The Glass Ballerina...Has something interrupted this ballet? Who exactly is choreographing this dance?

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Disclaimer: I never claim to know everything about the show and my thoughts by no means make me right! The things I share here are my views and/or opinions. I don't claim to catch every single detail either! You all know I hate spoilers! And I stand clear of reading certain sites as to not take me off my own course of research. The one thing I don't need to do here is rehash all of the obvious clues from an episode, we all know what they are. Understood? Good! Let the fun begin! I'll only note things that I know come up as clues later, but need to be noted when they first show up and things I find that will be of importance! It will get very exciting as we progress into the story.